had a shrink session today.
discussion was same as always. how am i,ok i guess.(but in reality blah)and then we started to talk..some parts of the times that i would explain stuff i would be in the verge of tears..2x that time.but i compose myself as fast as ever trying to hold back everything.
and yet nothing.
i just get some meaningless reflections and he tells me to ponder. he gives me some tips on how to overcome. things that are "medically accurate".
and my session again ends 30 mins when I am really paying for an hour.
he asks if i have anything else in my mind..of course i have heaps!(but i shrug and say no)-obviously. and the session ends.
am i suppose to feel better? the session only taught me one thing: not to be defensive during fights with people i love, and just to reflect and ponder on the statements they make about me. thats it.
my verge of tears part = a sign to show my doctor that i have pain. emotionally.
but i get nothing.
see you next month!
i don't know what to think anymore. i just keep stuff deep deep deep inside.
i just want a doctor to dig deep. dig deep and get into the real pain.
haven't found one yet :/