Anyone ever get that sinking feeling in the pit of their stomach? One moment where you could be doing anything, and then the feeling's there, almost a nauseous feeling, where you think to yourself 'Is this it? Is this the way my life is always going to be? Am I going to have to struggle with my own emotions for ever? Is doing little things like going to the supermarket, always going to cause me so much panic and upset? Will I ever be free to go wherever my mood takes me, like I used to? Is there any point in struggling? Should I just accept my fate and let the panic do what it will?
Sorry to ramble, but that's how I'm feeling right now. It's like I'm constantly fighting to 'be normal' to the outside world, when inside I feel like screaming and telling everyone to look at me, to take away this horrid feeling that's always in the pit of my stomach, the fear that's always lurking in the back of my mind and the fogginess that seems to descend on my head and senses at least ten times a day - like a grey blanket that's suffocating me and not letting me be happy.
Do I sound crazy? Have any of you guys had these feelings? Please say you have! I'm scared I'm actually losing my mind now (which would be a bitch after I've fought for so long to get better!). XX
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SempreDomani
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... You described perfectly how I feel a lot of the time. Last week I had the "I can do anything feeling!" because I'd had a couple of fairly big successes. This week, feeling the complete opposite. Close to wanting to pack everything in and hide forever because it's easier. I guess we just have to take the ups with the downs. Although it's hard, we can't let the fear take over and control our lives. Even if it means taking steps back and coming here to vent and seek comfort. We'll always be here for each other. Let's try and beat the feeling together and get back some of that positive attitude :) |
macksmom
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same here Manz82, I know what you are talking about. Not to discourage you, but I'm 55 years old and this came on me when I was about 19. I always was nervous in school. For many years I couldn't leave the ground floor of a building. I didn't want anyone to drive except me. My parents had to stay with my daughter overnight when her tonsils were taken out. I couldn't leave the ground floor. Same as when my son broke his elbow when he was 6 years old. I was a single parent with 4 children to raise. I feared losing custody over the things I couldn't do for my kids. It's always been a hard road for me. I grew up an only child in an alcohol based home, rigid rules. I never had any feelings of self worth. I have wonderful days and bad ones where I am just tired of being me. Living with myself is no picnic. I try to remember that I have children and grandchildren who love me, and I have all of you here to talk to. |
inspired
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... You have just described how I have been feeling for the past month. My doctor changed my medicine and I had to go back to the old meds because the new one made me feel even worse. I feel like each day it gets worse. I hope it helps a bit to know you're not alone. I will think positive thoughts for you every time I push myself forward. All My Best, Norell |
a guest
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... I feel exactly the same way everyday!! Such a horrible feeling! How are we supposed to get better or even think it's possible when you never feel good?! Just know you are not alone! |
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lis440
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... You are not alone! I feel the same way everyday! It's like I'm waiting all day everyday for an attack to hit. Sometimes I just wish I would have an attack hoping the feeling will go away. I can't seem to stop thinking about my anxiety; it leaves my mind for a bit when I am preoccupied but it always seems to creep back. |
