Well its melanie. I just walked in the door, was actually starting to get a panic attack, so I went for a half hour walk. The days are up and down. I went to a cleaning job this morning, it is just down the street and no one is there so it was ok. Up and down with the anxiety all day. Plus drove to my doctor alone, which is only a few blocks but take the success right?
I still dont have my daughter home. I am wondering when this will settle right down. Do I wait longer to get her back or just bring her back into this... I still sort of feel like I need to get more stable.
The tears have slowed right down. Havent really cried for two days. Been back on Paxil for 5 days now, on 10 mg. Went to the doctor today , mine is gone for a week, but he said I should go ahead and double it now. So of course I feel nervous ...me and the nedication. Also said take more clonazapam then Im taking. Anyone else here on my combo? or on either drugs..
Still havent taken the serquil, but not sleeping good. Feeling pretty anxious right now.. man I hate anxiety.. I do feel sorry for all of us. I really do when I read these blogs. I THINK I am getting better, but still some pretty rough spots. I just wish I would get better faster and everything just be back to normal. I want my daughter home so bad. I havent had this much time on my hands for years. Im not even getting much done. I am going to start working around the house a bit more.. get it ready for her coming home and just start doing things. Even started cooking a bit again for my son, hes 17 and been here through all this...
Thanks for all your support
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panic2004
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... I am on Clonezapam, or Klonopin, also. I don't know how long you have been on it, but I have been on it for four years and it is a struggle to try to wean myself off of it, but it has became my security blanket, so I have failed 2 times now. So, I would recommend short usuage only if you have just started taking it. Take it only when you have a panic attack if you are able to do that. I am not trying to scare you off, but they say the withdrawal is horrible!!! I also know how you are feeling, anxiety always get the best of me!! I am up at this time because of anxiety. I have so much on my mind that it won't shut down, do you ever have that problem? I would not wish this upon my worst enemy!! I hope you get better soon, so you can have your daughter back home. Best of luck to you! |
Planetjoe10
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... Hi Melanie, I am on Klonopin 2mg a day and Zoloft.. There is no doubt that it is scary taking new meds but they will help. I have been taking klonopin for over ten years and yes it is an addictive drug so if you take it for a long length of time you will have withdrawals when trying to stop. I have panic and agoraphobia and also cannot drive alone. I have dealt with it for 15+ years. I hate to tell people not to take the klonopin because it will help take the edge of the anxiety but on the other hand well you get the idea. I can only tell you that the meds have helped me go from a person that at a point in his life was afraid to leave his bedroom to someone who is now married and had 4 kids and a good career. The only issue I still struggle with is driving alone or for long distances away from home. So for me I needed the meds and they helped me leaps and bounds but for someone else it may be different. Remember always that the meds are only 10 - 20% of the over all help where the other 80% is through therapy, groups like this and exposure therapy to desensitize the fear. I know this maybe makes you even more anxious but do what is best for you and also listen to your Dr. they see this stuff everyday.. Your not alone :) Joey |
Melly0399
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... Hi, thanks for the responses. I know all about benzo withdrawal. I actually had to go to detox 8 years ago I was on so much. WOrst experience of my life. But I am allowing myself to take it, I am on a small dose, but already I can tell it is not working as well. I drove alone today to the hospital to pick up a sleep study kit, and then on the way home even enrolled my kid in kindergarten. Both was hard because I am anxious but I did it. Like I keep repeating myself I really need to try and take this serauil tonight, it knocks you out. It is actually a anti psychotic but they give it to alot of people to help sleep and helps anxiety the next day. I took it for years but struggling with the fear thing with pills... I appreciate your guys support. |
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