i must confess that because i think that athleltics is full of drugs (ben johnson actually told the truth about things) i have poo poo-ed the great event taking part right on my doorstep.
the olympic cycling passed right by where i was working and i didnt make the effort to watch it. (in honesty i would have had to turn up v early and then walk quite a way as well).
my high minded and holier than thou approach to much of my life has caused me endless problems. in seeing all the faults and withdrawing from what i have seen as 'impure' i can, if i don't watch it, entrench myself in self justified anger.
i have realised with things like christmas etc that the way to see it differently is to actually take part and give it a break.
i have decided that in turning my face away from the olympics i have only taken something out of my life and not put anything in to it.
i was talking to someone the other day who was quite spiteful about the whole thing. it was then that i saw how i myself sounded.
on wed i will try to get to hampton court palace ( 'ome of 'enry the 8th) to watch the road race time trials.
my real underlying problem is with traveling to the olympic stadium which is on the other side of a very busy london town. i worry about buying tickets because i worry about the claustrophobic journey. result=i havent got any tickets=i might miss something that will never again be so close to me. and i have got irritable because of this tension.
i am usually upbeat about much of my life and dont like getting clogged up with this stuff. i know that i cannot theorise about my life anymore. in living it i seek the light, and the worry is usually greater than doing the thing itself.
so if i end up watching womens wrestling (54kg class) then so be it!!
onward my good friends, toward light and life.
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tsuki
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... I admit to living my life with a touch of bitterness during my younger years, oft times condemning without research, understanding or participation, those activities or events existing outside of my comfort zone. Thank goodness raising my children changed that. So as not to perpetuate that jaundiced view of life, I followed my children in their innocence to join in without judgement that which brought true joy to our lives. Thanks for reminding me, Steve. I'm glad you're going to take advantage of this rare Olympic experience. It would be such a shame not to. Enjoy yourself! |
stevesmj
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... alas, my theoretical angst was somewhat reduced when i couldnt get tickets for anything!! womens basketball was the only proposition at £125 a ticket. couldnt spend it. road race time trials tomorrow=last option. onward |
