i must confess that because i think that athleltics is full of drugs (ben johnson actually told the truth about things) i have poo poo-ed the great event taking part right on my doorstep.
the olympic cycling passed right by where i was working and i didnt make the effort to watch it. (in honesty i would have had to turn up v early and then walk quite a way as well).
my high minded and holier than thou approach to much of my life has caused me endless problems. in seeing all the faults and withdrawing from what i have seen as 'impure' i can, if i don't watch it, entrench myself in self justified anger.
i have realised with things like christmas etc that the way to see it differently is to actually take part and give it a break.
i have decided that in turning my face away from the olympics i have only taken something out of my life and not put anything in to it.
i was talking to someone the other day who was quite spiteful about the whole thing. it was then that i saw how i myself sounded.
on wed i will try to get to hampton court palace ( 'ome of 'enry the 8th) to watch the road race time trials.
my real underlying problem is with traveling to the olympic stadium which is on the other side of a very busy london town. i worry about buying tickets because i worry about the claustrophobic journey. result=i havent got any tickets=i might miss something that will never again be so close to me. and i have got irritable because of this tension.
i am usually upbeat about much of my life and dont like getting clogged up with this stuff. i know that i cannot theorise about my life anymore. in living it i seek the light, and the worry is usually greater than doing the thing itself.
so if i end up watching womens wrestling (54kg class) then so be it!!
onward my good friends, toward light and life.