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Hi , everyone!

 

Lets see where do I start?  I am 39 years old and my wonderful life with anxiety started about two years ago with a trip to the dentist.  I was getting a filling and he gave me a shot of novacaine and I had a bad reaction to it.  I did not know that novacaine has adrenaline in it my heartrate was so fast and I felt like I could not breathe scared me to death!!  I thought I was dying right there in the chair.  I have always been a happy person always willing to try and do new things never afraid.  After that happen I became a mess.  About a week after the novicaine induced panic attack I was driving to work and just out of the blue had a panic attack I called 911 the ambulance came they said I was fine and that I was just having a panic attack.  I called my husband and he came and got me and took me to the ER.  They could find nothing wrong with me.  Will in the two years since that has happened I am afraid to go places by myself I will not go to the grocerey store alone and if I have to I stay on the phone the whole time.  This stupid thing has just made me insane!!  I just want to go back to my old happy self!!  The doctors have tryed to put me on meds but I just have every side effect there is.  I can manage to go to work because Iam comfertable there but today I stayed home.  I worry everyday about my health every twitch pain anything sets me off.  I am always afraid I am going to pass out which I never have.  I cant even go anywhere and enjoy myself because I am  always thinking what if!!  What if I have a panic attack or what if I just fall over.  I just need to change my pattern of thinking and I dont know how!!

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bv2116 said:

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I'm going on 2 years since my panic attack began.
Besides meds, I'm undergoing cognitive behavioral therapy with my counselor. He recommends the work of Byron Katie in the book “Loving What Is" to assist with changing the way my mind reacts.

One day at a time!
 
March 19, 2009
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blcheek15 said:

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Welcome to the site...first of all, there is tons of people
on this site who will always be here for you!

But i have been dealing with panic disorder since Nov 08
i was put on zoloft, couldn't handle it...
klonopin...still take it sometimes
and just got prescribed Ativan...for my awful PA's

but today i actually am trying not to take ANY medicine and
just stick with therapy, working out, eating right, and
taking it one day at a time.

Therapy has worked very well for me, and also try acupuncture!
i go for my first one next wendsday!
i will let you know how that goes in a blog!
But i have heard it does wonders for Panic/Anxiety/depression
and alot of other things!

i am always here if you need anything or any advice!
 
March 19, 2009
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Jillian said:

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With how to change your way of thinking, I can't help you because II'm having a hard time doing that myself... But if you ever need to talk, vent or just want to chat to get your mind off things feel free to message me:)
I wish you lots of luck.

Oh and I totally agree about this site... there are a lot of people here that are always willing to help and listen! Everyone is very sweetr kind and caring... So welcome:)
 
March 19, 2009
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tfro said:

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Thanks for the support I feel better already!!
 
March 19, 2009
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mel said:

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Hi there,
First of all you are definitely not alone with the things you feel and with all those problems that accompany anxiety disorder. I'm one of the veterans :) since I had my first panic attack when I was turning 19, while now I'm 32 and in one of the worst phases of my life. In these 14 years I had EACH AND EVERY symptom described anywhere associated with PA and GAD, I have agoraphobia and for months at a time I refused to leave my house, so you can call me a pretty bad case. Anyhow, last October, after some 15 months being housebound I finally started moving again just a bit, so I figured out that I had to have my teeth checked, I felt just a slight discomfort on one side. It was October 1st when I went to my dentist's office. Two days ago it was March 18th and it was my 20th time that I went there in 5 and a half months and I'm still not done! :) I got two fillings replaced, I have two new fillings, I have two teeth that were cured in order to save their nerves and then filled, afterwards they got so painful that the devitalization just had to be done. And that's something you must do with anaesthesia or you WOULD faint, PD or not. :) So I had 5 anaesthesias in this period, mainly because my teeth nerves are much stronger than the rest of my nervous system and just won't die with standard procedures, so I got one shot for opening the canal and another for taking the nerve out of the canal by force per tooth because it just wouldn't die not even in matter of like 10 weeks.. well the fact is that I had just one anaesthesia before at the dentist's because my teeth used to be in a good shape once, so I didn't really know what to expect. What helped was that I'm still on my benzos, so whenever I went there I took like a double dose and it was more or less fine. Every local anaesthetic contains a bit of artificial adrenalin to keep the anaesthesia there for at least 2-3 hours, otherwise the body would just carry away the medicine and you would feel the pain. What they didn't count on is that there are people like us who have a HUGE excess of adrenaline already in our systems even when we sit in our armchairs, let alone in a situation where someone is opening your tooth nerve, so there is no need to add even more. But hey, they just make the medication to fit the MAJORITY (when yu think about it, things in this world are mostly made to satisfy only the majority of those who are alike, but that's another issue completely). So I got my first shot and yes I had palpitations and very accelerated heart beat, but I just knew what it was, it's an old compainion of mine, so I was afraid but I didn't freak out, and it calmed down in a matter of minutes. Subsequent shots were all different, it depended on my benzo dose and on how good was a day in general for me, we all have good and bad days. Two days ago I was in a middle of stomach cramps, cycle, I didn't sleep and I was barely standing on my feet, but I went there, got the shot, got the tachicardia, jittered a lot waiting for my jaw to drop completely (my dentist saw it as just some discomfort :) while yes it was a PA), got my nerves extracted by force from two canals with 7 types of needles.. all right I had a feeling that I would faint, it was very unreal like hmmm what I'm doing here, I want to ran away, I changed positions every now and then but I also made jokes and spoke with all those instruments in my mouth :) like uoisss thuaaat neeearve ouuuttt and my dentist laughed a lot.. when I wanted to stand up, I was very unsteady (but I'm unsteady on my feet most of the time so what's the difference), I was shaking all over and had jelly legs, I had to use the bathroom there because my stomach was flipping just as always when I'm afraid, but nobody saw anything strange there. Time and practice are the only things that help, the more you see that it won't kill you, the better off you'll be. You just have to accept those feelings and wait. There is nothing you can done to save yourself because you are safe, that's the only truth.
 
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mel said:

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continues... :)

I've had so many palpitations up to now (one very strong even when attached to ECG machine - it was while I still searched for a terrible illness that I surely was dying of) that I would at least have a heart attack by now if it were so harmful. But it never happened, I'm still here. I went from complete agoraphobia to long overseas flights all alone and back to agoraphobia.. then from being roombound to 5 shots of novocaine and lidocaine.. so there and back again. I'm not well in general, yesterday I was in a terrible state, I also have an outburst of hay fever in the last several days, but I still hope I'll be on a plane again once more. I still don't believe in a cure for this in our lifetimes, but I believe in remission. Because I know that a total remission IS possible, it happened to me and in that period I haven't even had a single thought about anxiety. So I believe it can happen to any of us, I'm not some special and unique case. So hang in there and be positive! :)
 
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