Hi, its Melanie. well I just went and did a small job with a friend driving, and even went to walmart. I think I am getting better. I am still very afraid and have become very reliant on other people still with the driving. Just reliant on other people in general, still have a hard time being alone.
My stomach is still very acting up. I barely eat and when I do it runs right through.. I know too much information. I have lost I would say 20 pounds last couple weeks.
I miss my daughter like crazy, not sure how I am going to get her home still... I know some people understand. I am open to any suggestions. I havent seen her in two days just cause her dad isnt feeling well. I just wish so bad he lived closer and then it wouldnt be so bad. But he lives on the other side of town. It feels far away. I am going to practice driving I think alone the next few days. I have a job I can do this wednesday, which is about 15 minute drive away and 5 hours long... cleaning job... I am going to attempt it... its all baby steps.
I do really hate this disorder, I really feel for any mental health stuff it is the hardest of anything. My doctor is back tomorrow which I am going to see. I am glad he is back.. he is a huge support...
Thanks for all your support.. I really hope I come out of this on the otherside.. cant wait to not be afraid anymore... so tired of the fear...
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mama2three
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... Melly, I have read a few of your blogs and I mus tell you, it DOES get better. I am SO glad you're sticking with the medication. I've had this disorder for quite sometime now and I found my right combo of meds was Lexapro and klonopin, everyone is different. I got off of them when i got pregnant and afterwards tried a few other ones which did not give me much relief so I started Lexapro and klonopin again. I've been on the Lexapro for almost 2 months now and the klonopin for about a month and I MUST say I feel much better, not 100% b/c nothing is perfect but I'll take the "better" anyday. Keeping you in my prayers sweetie, I know how much you miss your little girl (((HUGS))) |
pauly
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... Your doing great Melanie keep it up and things will get better you have to believe that. |
