So, I didnt manage the dentist trip; I completely lost it I think. I just knew that there was no way I was going to get through it, that Id reached my limit of panic that day and needed to just give myself a little more time. My family were very supportive. However, the dental practice was not and were particularly rude and nasty about cancelling the appointment without giving 48 hours notice.
I was really frustrated with myself at the time, thats the first time Ive ever really given in with the dentist thing. Though speaking with my Mum helped me. I had been drinking the night before; does anyone elses issues get worse the day after alcohol? I wasnt particularly drunk but thats irrelevant lol.
Im forcing myself to get back on the wagon and regain control of my anxiety again. I was doing really well and I want to avoid a complete relapse over one minor incident. Ive decided not to get too upset about it because theres always going to be little bumps in the road.
I think Ive done well this week not to have a full blown panic attack. My cat has recently had kittens and now shes no longer feeding them her milk has started to dry up. I went to pick her up and she put her claws into the front and back of the knuckle in my thumb. Needless to say there was a lot of blood but to be honest I thought I was overreacting. The next day it was swollen and hot so I decided to ask my local pharmacist for advice. All of this would normally have been a panic inducing scenario but I got through it! The pharmacist recommended having it looked at by a nurse and I made the appointment by myself. This was one of the first times Ive ever seen a doctor by myself without a supportive figure! I had to get a tetanus injection but I didnt freak out. For me, this was a big step forward and has made me feel confident about taking control of myself.
Ive been really trying recently to be confident with who I am as a person, including my anxiety. I told a work colleague that I suffer from anxiety the other day which is something I wouldnt normally disclose. I just thought 'why shouldnt people know? Its nothing to be ashamed of, its a part of me'.
hope everyone is doing ok :)