So, I didnt manage the dentist trip; I completely lost it I think. I just knew that there was no way I was going to get through it, that Id reached my limit of panic that day and needed to just give myself a little more time. My family were very supportive. However, the dental practice was not and were particularly rude and nasty about cancelling the appointment without giving 48 hours notice.
I was really frustrated with myself at the time, thats the first time Ive ever really given in with the dentist thing. Though speaking with my Mum helped me. I had been drinking the night before; does anyone elses issues get worse the day after alcohol? I wasnt particularly drunk but thats irrelevant lol.
Im forcing myself to get back on the wagon and regain control of my anxiety again. I was doing really well and I want to avoid a complete relapse over one minor incident. Ive decided not to get too upset about it because theres always going to be little bumps in the road.
I think Ive done well this week not to have a full blown panic attack. My cat has recently had kittens and now shes no longer feeding them her milk has started to dry up. I went to pick her up and she put her claws into the front and back of the knuckle in my thumb. Needless to say there was a lot of blood but to be honest I thought I was overreacting. The next day it was swollen and hot so I decided to ask my local pharmacist for advice. All of this would normally have been a panic inducing scenario but I got through it! The pharmacist recommended having it looked at by a nurse and I made the appointment by myself. This was one of the first times Ive ever seen a doctor by myself without a supportive figure! I had to get a tetanus injection but I didnt freak out. For me, this was a big step forward and has made me feel confident about taking control of myself.
Ive been really trying recently to be confident with who I am as a person, including my anxiety. I told a work colleague that I suffer from anxiety the other day which is something I wouldnt normally disclose. I just thought 'why shouldnt people know? Its nothing to be ashamed of, its a part of me'.
hope everyone is doing ok :)
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Loves October
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... You've had quite a few victories! BE PROUD. If you're accomplishing things that would usually defeat you, it's a big deal! |
manz82
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... Hey Flossy. I completely understand how you feel about 'giving in to the fear'. I did it too when faced with the dentist. I got right up to the day and couldn't go through with it. My dentist was also abrupt and actually struck me off the list! So I had to find another dentist which turned out to be the best thing that could have happened, as she was so understanding of my fears and she is really gentle with me. She knows I get dizzy and my heart races and she sits with me and talks calmly until I feel the panic subsiding enough for her to come near my mouth! Don't ever feel as though you have failed just because you cancelled one appointment. You are living with something that can feel like a constant uphill struggle and every little success you have should never be shadowed by the little 'blips'. I am petrified of anything medical, and would never dream of just visiting my doctor's on my own, so you are a lot braver than me! Take your time and try to 'float' to your next dental appointment. Even if you only manage to get a foot inside the door on your first attempt, as least you would have got a little further, until one day you will find yourself walking out of the surgery having succeeded in going through with a full appointment. GOod luck and lots of love. xxx |
