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So today was one of those days. GRRR!!!
Went to work already dreading it. Got there and not even 10 minutes into our business meeting I start feeling anxious. Hands started to shake, head started to shake. I couldnt sit still. Felt like the lights in the room were bothering my vision. Got up and pretended to take a call in the ladies room because I couldnt stand being in that room with so many people all close together. I felt like everyone was looking at me. I hate when I cant control my anxiety. It's stupid!
My doctor told me to get off my Zoloft because since I have been on it for over 10 years chances are I dont need it anymore. And I notice that since I have gone down to 50mg from 100 mg I dont shake as much and I dont get the head tremors like I use to. So in a way it's a good thing. He gave me a prescription for beta blockers which I havent taken and then I requested clonopin but he gave me xanax instead which I havent taken either because I'm too scared to take new meds. I hate this and I wish it would all go away. I get so mad because I hate that I have to deal with this.
Hope you all had a better day :(
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Loves October
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... Years ago, I was you. My method of getting out of meetings was the fake coughing attack (no cell phones, then ;). Finally, I told my boss. She was more supportive than I expected. Can you tell her that you feel closed in in meetings and need to sit by the door in case you need to take a break? Being under- cover has usually led to my undoing, but being forth-right has helped more than I expected. Is your boss safe? |
tsuki
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... I'm sorry you had a not-so-good day. Sounds like your weaning off of Zoloft is going well. Have you asked your Dr. why Xanax was prescribed instead of Klonopin? Read up on both and see what pros and cons there are. Discuss with your Dr. your concerns in taking your new meds. There may be other options available. I hope you have a better day tomorrow :) . . . hugs |
just mel
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... Thanks guys. I appreciate the kind words and advice. I dont really feel that I can tell my boss what I go through just because I just started working there and I dont want them to think that I cant do my job. Plus Im embarrassed :( Today I had a better day, I went to a job interview for a small part time job just to make some extra cash, as I was in the interview I was feeling anxious but I stuck it out. I was proud of myself although it only lasted about 10 or 15 minutes and it was just myself and the manager there. I think that since I started to wean off my zoloft I am getting more anxiety outside my house. When I'm home I am fine it's just when I have to be around other people that I feel bad. However I am determined to get off zoloft for good so I am going to stick it out. I carry my xanax as a safety net but I dont take them. sigh Well I hope you all had a good day. Thanks again for caring. |
The 'ol insomnia again, huh?