Hi everyone. Not been on here for a couple of weeks because I've had a lot of family problems to deal with.
My brother has been with his partner for nearly eight years and they have three children together (a 6-year-old boy and twins, aged two). They are the light of my life and it just so happens that his partner is now my best friend. I absolutely love her to pieces, so you can understand the horror I experienced when he left her and the children to go and have fun! And by fun, I mean shacking up with a new girl within weeks of leaving my friend and the children.
Needless to say this didn't settle well with me (too close to home because of what my husband did to my a few years back) and I have had a massive screaming match with my brother, told him lots of home truth's, like the fact he is spoilt and self-centred and needs to grow a pair of balls and man up!
He didn't take this very well and stormed out and we haven't spoken since.
I am trying to be there for my friends and the children but I feel the stress creeping up on me more and more - I'm finding it hard to sit and do nothing because I immediately focus on my heart beat and it inevitably starts to race when I hone in on it.
I'm also experiencing something I've never felt before and it's kinda freaking me out - I've never had a problem sleeping, even when my anxiety was at it's worse (I knew how lucky I was to be able to rest), but for the past week or so when, just as I am drifting off I feel a weird stab of fear in the centre of my chest - it takes my breath away and my eyes shoot open. I then have to breathe deeply for a few minutes and try to go back to sleep when I feel calm again. Some nights it only happens once and other nights it happens a couple of times and I don't like it!
Have any of you had these weird night time horrors and if so, could you give me some advice on how to stop them?
Funny thing - last night I had a few beers and went to bed feeling rather relaxed and very tired. I feel asleep with no problem at all and slept right through.
Maybe beer is the answer? (obviously joking! Nobody take offence, my sense of humour if a little warped!)
Hope you're all well. xxx