Hi everyone,
I hope everyone had a nice thanksgiving. Mine was okay . I had a rough moment when it got hot in the room and there were too many people I had to go outside and get my head on straight for a minute. It was just a little much for me.
The problem I am having is I feel fine. That is the problem. I can't seem to accept that I am starting to feel better. It is like I am paranoid about feeling better. I've been through a lot and it has kind of traumatized me. I've been taking it easy since I have gotten out of the hospital and I have been feeling really tired. So I have mostly been sitting around on the couch watching television. It's like I am sitting around waiting for the anxiety and panic to come back any minute. So far it hasn't but I can't get rid of that fearful feeling. It is like I don't know how to act without anxiety. I am actually scared. I feel really tired all the time I don't know whether it is from the medication or I am just mentally and physically tired at this point. it has been a hell of a two months for me. It's almost 9 in the morning and I feel just as tired as I did before I went to bed last night. The depression is starting to go away but I am still tired. I take a low dose of klonipin in the morning .25mg and I am wondering if this is what is causing me to be so tired. Or is it my body is just exhausted after all I have been through? I just wish that I could get over the anticipatory anxiety sitting around waiting for a panic attack. I guess over time as I get my confidence back I will be okay but it doesn't seem like I have much confidence at this point. I just want to be normal again, and I think I sm on the right track this time if I could only get over these feelings of anxiety about having anxiety.
Patty
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Irish
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... We are all like this Patti and meds will affect you on whether you feel tired or not. I take the klonipin(clonazepam) when I go to bed and within 20 minutes I'm practically in a comma. I used to take it once in the morning, at lunch and at bed time. I was tired all the time. But that was way better than the anxiety beating on me. As tired as you may be, remember we have a body that needs to be taken care of as well. So I would get off the couch and go for a 4 mile walk, or take a bike. You can even walk slow on a treadmill, but exercise will perk you up later on after doing it. Anticipatory anxiety is the disorder. It's why we are the way we are. Have to deal with it the best way we can with the best way that works for us. Even that can change and you have to make adjustments, but anyone with a serious illness has to make adjustments. Hang in there and cherish those not so much anxiety moments. Take care....Ed |
Gilligan
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... Hi Patty, I agree with everything Ed said. Promise you won’t change the Meds without having a serious discussion with you Doc this time. OK? Best Wishes George |
Cristyn
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... Your on the right track Patty. As far as being sluggsh and tired all the time it is a mixtur of meds and everything you have been throgh. Good news is eventually you will wake up one morning and the anxiety won't be the first thing you think about or the last thing you think about fbefore you go to sleep. So hang in there. Relief ill come. |
PattyPanic
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... I'm not going to change my meds I promise because they are working. I actually did have a discussion with the doctor last time and he told me to just quit the xanax. Not very good advice as far as I am concerned. Ed is right it is anticipatory anxiety and the meds do make me tired. I know that at night when I take my klonipin and celexa i don't last very long after that. I try to fight the sleep but boom next thing you know I am waking up in the morning. I guess I am just not used to not having anxiety. It is way too cold to go for a walk or bike ride but I changed my guinea pigs cage which meant I had to go outside and I got myself a little bit of fresh crisp air. It is hard to get used to a life of not being constantly busy and I think that is half my problem. For the past 15 years all I have done is work, take care of kids and go to college. Now I don't work, My kids can take care of themselves, and I have a BSIT. I have to make a new life for myself and it is scary and I don't quite know what to do with myself. Along with depression comes the loss of interest and I am trying to get back into reading which I love so much. I need to find myself some interests. Next week I start my intensive outpatient program which I am kind of nervous about but I think it is going to be a big step in getting better. I am actually feeling almost myself and I haven't felt like this in so long it scares me. My psychiatrist told me that I have lived with anxiety for most of my life and I did not know how to live without it. I guess he was right. Thanks you guys. Patty |
Honeyface
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... PP - I tried to post this before, but for some reason it never posted. I think that you are feeling the effects of both the meds and your body try hard to get itself right. I used to worry about feeling tired all of the time, but I came to terms that my body needs the rest - so I take a little nap every day. Although as Irish pointed out you do need get out and get a bit of exercise as well - I don't know about starting out at 4 miles, but at least getting some fresh air and sunshine, go around the block a few times until you feel stronger and more willing to do more. I am glad that you are feeling better as far as the anxiety - hope it continues to go in that direction. |
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