I had probably 7-10 beers last night. I know I shouldn't drink on these meds, it's so hard to hang out and be social without drinking though. I know it's possible it's just so rough, I gotta work on it. Anyway, yet again I slept like crap after drinking, and was having a really strange day at work. Mind was racing, and felt like I wasn't really paying much attention to what I was doing. Thoughts were jumping around from one to the next, most of them good thoughts, but it just seemed to be going way too fast.
What I noticed too is that I feel that if I'm not drunk, I don't feel anything. Idk if thats true or not, but nothing really excites me or interests me much anymore, I question everything I'm doing lately. When I had a buzz last night I didnt worry about it nearly as much, so stupid that that's probably what drove me to drink.
On another note too, I got this girls number last night. She's pretty hot and definetly interested in getting to know her, but I'm such a mess lately I feel like I shouldn't take the leap. I feel like I'm in too much of a confused state to take on something like that, but then again on the flip side maybe getting involved in whatever kind of relationship it could turn out to be, could make my mind focus on that and get off of myself? Just bouncin ideas off the wall and tryin to find one that sticks :)
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Gilligan
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... You have an alcohol abuse problem. This link may help you. http://www.adaa.org/understand...hol-abuse |
Mike619er
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... I don't feel like I do though. I never drink by myself, and I never really crave or really want to drink. Just more of a social thing, I think I can probably get it under control. |
inspired
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... Mike, you don't have to crave alcohol, drink alone, drink everyday or go on binges to have an alcohol problem. I didn't have any of those problems, but I did do what you do. I didn't stop & couldn't stop with only one when I drank. I always drank more than I should - it started with just a couple more than I should have & escalated to way more than I could handle. It got to the point where I was fun for a while & then I was just out of control. The hangovers were hell & I'd slack off for a while. Then I'd go out with friends to have a drink & it was the same - way too many drinks. I am not saying you are an alcoholic & George isn't either. You have an alcohol abuse problem and so did I. You can stop. Your first step, as always, is to accept that it is a problem. You haven't accepted that it is a problem yet. Please talk with your psychiatrist and do some reading - when you are ready to accept it, you can make steps to change the behavior. I thank God for every day I live without alcohol in it. I wish you all my best.....I know you are a strong & intelligent man........you can do this. Norell |
fablegirl
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... Hello there Mike: Just wanted to tell you that I am concerned about you and your drinking...And yes, taking medication in addition to all of the alcohol is NOT GOOD.. Please know that I am not judging you or trying to make you feel bad...BELIEVE ME I know where you are coming from...I am NOT PERFECT and face my own issues as well...I am saying with compassion and respect that it is DANGEROUS to mix drugs and alcolhol. and I hope you will do some soul searching about this.. respect and concern: Fablegirl |
Mike619er
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... Thanks for all the support from everyone. I didn't mean to come off really defensive, but I honestly didnt think and still am thinking I don't have a problem. I believe my problem lies in peer pressure. I won't ever touch a drink unless I'm around a group of people that are partying. I have no desire to ever just crack one open and drink away my sorrows. It's a social thing, but yea I do realize that my problem is that I can't stop. And mixing it with the medicine is a very bad idea. I'll definetly have to work on figuring out a way to still hang around all of my friends while not drinking. That's going to be a huge change. |
MattJames
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... Hey Mike, I'm really don't feel i'm in any position to give advise and I'm certainly no Dr. But I totally understand where you are coming from. I have been dealing with severe anxiety and panic attacks for the better part of 10 years!!! Ive finally taken the plunge and been seeing a pysch. I'm taking several medications now and although they significantley helped with my anxiety, I feel like a shell of my former self. I used to laugh, joke and have fun with my buddies all of the time and now i always feel like i'm on the outside looking in. Anyway, I decided to man up and have a few of my friends over for the UFC fights this past weekend. I laid off of the Ativan that evening because i wanted to have some beers with my crew during the fights. let me tell you...I felt alive for the first time in months. I felt like myself again. Like you, I was never a huge drinker or even a binge drinker for that matter. Just a guy who when gets together with friends likes to put a few down. I felt guilty about it in the morning and was concerned about the affects it may have caused just like you. I know it's not right and i'm not condoning your actions...Just wanted to chime in here and let you know that I totally understand and relate with what you are going through. Keep your head up brother. -Matt |
Mike619er
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... Hey Matt, thanks a lot man. I know the things we do don't make any sense. The fact that we cave in sometimes and drink on the meds. I dont want to do it anymore, but what you said pretty much sums it all up right there. I feel like myself again when I'm drinking. But it's not the drinking, it's the being around my friends. That's what makes mee feel alive and feel good again. Even though lately I'm pretty anxious all the time, I find myself less anxious when I'm out with them. I just somehow gotta work on hanging with them and not drinking. I normally succumb to the peer pressure pretty bad lol. Thanks again man, keep your head up too Matt. I was so bad 2-3 months ago, and even though I'm still strugglin I'm in a much better place. This crap gets better, it's just aggravating as all hell. |
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