Posted by: sabby8 in Untagged on
Feb 11, 2009
So, I had my mole taken off last week, on Monday I go back to get the stitches removed and get the results. Like I posted before, I felt ok, not super, but ok about the wait and about working through the anxiety and really trying hard not to let it take me over...but I guess that's gone out the window. The past two nights have been hard. I'm been obsessively worried about skin cancer, not able to focus on work and school stuff and that's not been a good week for that. I feel out of it at work and worry that others notice. I am trying to rehearse and prepare myself for going back on Monday, but I just keep feeling helpless and afriad.
I go to bed with worry and wake up and for a few minutes will be okie, then I remember why I went to bed early or late in the first place, because of the worry., and then it all comes rushing back.
Posted by: sabby8 in Untagged on
Feb 11, 2009
So, I had my mole taken off last week, on Monday I go back to get the stitches removed and get the results. Like I posted before, I felt ok, not super, but ok about the wait and about working through the anxiety and really trying hard not to let it take me over...but I guess that's gone out the window. The past two nights have been hard. I'm been obsessively worried about skin cancer, not able to focus on work and school stuff and that's not been a good week for that. I feel out of it at work and worry that others notice. I am trying to rehearse and prepare myself for going back on Monday, but I just keep feeling helpless and afriad.
I go to bed with worry and wake up and for a few minutes will be okie, then I remember why I went to bed early or late in the first place, because of the worry., and then it all comes rushing back.
Posted by: love2befree in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
Today I took another step towards feeling better. I started taking Lexapro to help me stop my obsessive thinking and anxiety. I have had a bad year and am hoping that this med along with the new therapist I saw last week is the step in the right direction. I feel like such a loser for having this horrible disease. I am married and have 2 beautiful children that depend on me. That's really hard considering I can't depend on myself to just survive the day without freakin out and going to the ER.......
Wish me luck on my new meds everyone....
Posted by: The_Teacher in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
So you know what bothers me? Spending money we don't have to fund a solution we historically know isn't a long-term solution, while also realizing that it will take several generations to pay off, if that soon. Of course, I hate big government so I don't like this idea at all. No, I don't have another solution personally, and I don't want to start a debate. I just don't think this is the best idea.
And I could have written this in the venting forum. But I'm not venting, I'm just mentioning something that bothers me b/c lately that's all we hear about. I'm not angry, my blood-pressure is stable and low, and I feel great. I just wish my great-great-great grandkids grandchildren wouldn't have to pay for the mistakes of the present. And I would like to know whats going to happen once this Third New Deal runs out of money (FDR had two of them before WWII, will history repeat itself?)
Clearly this blog has nothing to do with anxiety, but I thought I would blog on something that wasn't about my anxiety for once. As for an anxiety update - yeah, I had some today, but overall, it's been going great. :)
Posted by: kittenluvvr in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
Well since my meds have been raised my anxiety has been through the roof. The fact that im pmsing and currently on my rag doesnt help. If u read my previous entry in the forums you know that when i get pms my anxiety spikes. So with raising my meds (which can also spike anxiety) and pms ive been having a tough time. waking up is the hardest. i wake up and have a panic attack. i force myself back to sleep. then i wake up again and dread the fact that im alive for another day.im not suicidal just bitter i guess. im forcing myself to eat even tho im scared of throwing it up. moms also working days now instead of nights so its weerd for me too. shes worked nights almost all my life so all of a sudden having her gone during the day is freaky to me. cause when she works nights im asleep the whole time shes gone. She gets home at 530 so she will bee here in half an hour. so my anxiety is high im trudgin through the trenches tho. ive gotten a horrible addiction to chocolate. every night while i lay in bed i eat 3 full size chocolate bars and one rolo chocolate cone. needless to say im puttin on the pounds so im trying hard to stop it. i jsut feel like who cares. i have noone to look good for i neverr go out so y stay in shape? we are moving out of burnaby soon. its to hard for me here living right down the street from where my ex used to live. i convinced my mom wo move here because i wanted to be closer to him. but now his old place and the park we littered with jb plus sh forever is just killing me. not to mention im a lot more comfy in new west thats where i no all the faces and all the places. not to mention theres awesome dollar stores there. so in the meantime im working on gettin rid of alot of my crap. were gunna get an apt in a building with a pool and a full cement building...damn neighbours. thats another thing about new west its mostly old people so thats good too. i will be able to go grocery shopping with mom again cause its not in metrotown. also we got a letter in the mail from our mla notifying us of a prison being opened in may about 2 blocksfrom my house. im not huge on that either. not to mention this building isnt worth payiing 1100 dollars a month for. specially when were not allowed to wash our sheets and towels in our washing machines.
you guys seen this?
http://www.thestar.com/News/World/article/585671
Posted by: Lizzy in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
I had to take a xanax for the first time today in months. I started my student teaching and only do it 2 days a week. Its the part time before the the full time semester. Today was a full day and I did fine getting there and walking in. About an hour after being there and 30 mins after the kids came in I was hit by intense anxiety. I can usually talk myself down and relax myself but I just couldn't seem to do it. I think its because the kids are there and asking questions and I don't want them to see me in panic mode. Luckly I am not teaching the whole class yet just watching and helping. I waited about a half hour more and still could not calm down. I tried everything and of course the mind is going "get outta here and fast". SO I took my xanax, just .25mg. WIthin a half hour I was calm again. Made it through the day and started to enjoy myself. Now I am so tired that the xanax has worn off. I know that the xanax is there for that exact reason but I feel kinda bad I had to take it. Hope friday goes better for me.
Posted by: jammies101 in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
So I have been advised to take Vitamin B supplements along with my regular daily multi's. Wow I feel terrific the past couple days. A ton of energy, so far little to no anxiety. Could this really work? Why wouldn't my doctor have told me to do this? How completely crazy is that!!
We'll see how things go tonight though. My husband is working night shifts for the next week. It's always hard on me when he's not home.
Wish me luck for a good night and strong tomorrow!
Posted by: exite in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
Well my medication seemed to be working, but I just couldnt get to grips with myself Monday and Tuesday. I felt so irritated and down. Im okay with one bad day but when it turns into more I start to get disapointed with myself and asking that question 'WILL I EVER BE NORMAL' lol .
Today I took my medication in the morning and felt okay but still a little down, but by four o'clock i felt so low and aggravated that I took a look at a few sites regarding my medication and saw that some people are on a much higher dose. Im not a doctor and I know its wrong to self prescribe but I took another one at four o'clock and it really helped.
Ive been okay and I see my doctor tomorrow so Ill tell him how naughty I have been. Like I said Im not saying its the right thing to do but I felt I had to do it keep in control today. Ive got to take another one before bed so hopefully I will have a good nights sleep.
Posted by: Kira in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
Hi guys!
Just wanted to let you know that I am doing good- have chatted with a few of you but not had time to blog- going to bed early cause I am not used to getting up ay 5:30, and my training schedule has been full!
OMG I LOVE MY JOB! Remember when I failed the typing test for the other position at teh Hospital??? I think it was meant to be...I know I can type 50WPM yet I failed...I think I was meant to! Is that crazy??? So here I am just weeks later and training for a job way higher up the ladder- somewhat ironic, huh?
Posted by: abbeynormal in Untagged on
Feb 10, 2009
Hi. I just joined tonight and wanted to say hello. This site is a godsend for me. Literally. I need to find others who share my panic and anxiety issues. I have struggled with this for such a long time - more than 25 years - and I am so tired of being "in the closet" so to speak. The only person who knows about my panic and anxiety is my older brother. He has struggled with this for many years too, and he understands how I feel. But no one else - not anyone at my job or any other family members - know about it. It's like being a drug addict or alcoholic. I have this secret that no one knows because I know they wouldn't understand. I've spent the last 25 years making excuses for why I can't go places and do things. I lie my way out of everything because it's easier than trying to explain what's really going on. So, here I am. Finally reaching out to others in the hopes that I can make some new friends and bond with people like me -afraid to go anywhere - do anything - just hiding away in the safety of my condo with my dogs. I'm glad I found this site and look forward to getting to know new people. Thanks for letting me share.
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