Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Mar 5, 2013
Its been almost a year that I didn't post anything in this site. Just want to share my experience yesterday.
Been panic free for three years now. Yesterday, I went home 4 in the morning. While driving I felt something that I haven't felt like 3 years or so. So tired at that time and felt that my eyes are playing tricks on me and suddenly I got dizzy. I still continued driving and honestly I don't know what to do. After 2 minutes I felt that I am loosing control of myself. Got scared and its like 20 miles from home and I think 5 more miles to the nearest gas station. It;s like the feeling of wanting to bang the car because of severe rush of adrenaline or whatever it is. Panic attack? Psychosis? Loosing my mind? I don't know what it is...So I decided to pull over and stopped. Scared and everything. I made a loud roar! Luckily everything stopped and that's it.
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
May 24, 2012
Greetings!
It's been almost over a year since the last time I complained of this monster panic attack. Well not today though. Just dropped by to say hi and an update on how am I lately.
It's been almost a 100% for me. There are times that that I get this panic attacks but I know how to handle them even if it's so severe even while I'm driving. Just tattooed it in my mind that it is nothing. Easier said than done but I really did it. All I'm doing is watching my stress level and managing my every move.
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Sep 14, 2011
What a day today. Normally when I am stressed out, panic attack comes. What happened for me today is one of those near death situation but I came unscathed.
Since I am an alien in this country, this is the first time, I've been held up by two men. Lucky for me, I didn't have anything even a penny while I was walking down the street in broad daylight, I didn't expect because I am just walking to say hi to the morning sun. What a mess? I was poked by two knife wielding person. Of course my initial reaction was fear. Instead of thinking about the panic or anxiety, I was frozen. But I played dumb as if I cannot understand English. When they are asking for my wallet, I said "huh?". And also "no english no english". I'm just lucky because I felt they are amateurs and after 2 or 3 minutes, they got impatient and fled from the scene. Lucky for me I was not hurt or anything and the "no english" saved me. After an hour, that is the time that I thought about anxiety, after 10 seconds. Nothing.
One thing I have learned about this experience
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Sep 11, 2011
I've been inspired these days. I don't know why. I am just excited and in a few weeks I'll be going back to my motherland. Nice people here in Hawaii. I feel so much at home.
I learned a lot here from friends, to doctors and even cab driver. Now I know that life is so much precious. I don't know but I feel so much stronger. This travel made me realize the value of life. I learned how to hang on to something and it helped me wonder, why I wasted my life. How I wish I could turn back time...in reality I can't.
I want to thank also the wonderful people here in PS. I've learned a lot, what to do and not what to do. But most of all, the one's here who guided me spiritually and I have something to hang on.
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Sep 11, 2011
Sometimes we ask ourselves why us? Sometimes we ask ourselves we do not deserve this and that. Many questions that lead us to negative answers such as FAILURE.
My dance with panic has has made me a better person. First few months has always been a down for me (no ups, always down). Why? That I don't know, little information I guess. I only know of a word "FAILURE". Too bad.
I'm glad that everything has ended and these I told myself about "FAILURE".
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Sep 7, 2011
I always say this powerful prayer and this has been the source of my strength. Whatever our religion, it is good to that we hang on to something that we believe in. I believe that every one have there own prayer and this is my prayer.
Heavenly Father,
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Aug 31, 2011
Hi there guys.
Just arrived here in Honolulu from Manila. What a ride? 14 hours of ride seems like 2 days for me because of the turbulence. This is the first time that it ever happened to me but its worth it.
This is my first vacation since I got these panic attacks last year and this is my treat for myself being panic free. I thought that my anxiety will worsen the first time I got my in the plane. I don't know if its excitement or fear specially when the plane took off and I am traveling alone. Luckily, its excitement.
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Aug 27, 2011
This is an edited repost from my past blog. Just want to let everyone know that having positive thoughts can create 80% effectiveness fighting your panic attacks. I've always been a fighter but deep inside I am just a gentle guy who only wants to make people happy.
I am very happy and honored that finally, I am normal. Everything is highly curable. If you have questions or needs my help just buzz me. I am cicrcling around to help people like you.
No panic attacks since November 2010...Naturally =)
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Jul 9, 2011
Are you aware of your inner dialogue? If not, be aware of it at this moment. Just get quiet and listen, there is a voice inside you that is constantly talking to you all the time.
If you have ignored the power of this little voice, you have been missing a great tool for developing your personal power.
Your inner dialogue can be good or bad. If you have a positive thinking habit, your inner dialogue most likely is positive, and you will be very fortunate in having the joy of positive living. Unfortunately, most people don't have a
positive thinking habit; their inner dialogues are negative. Although they are working hard to improve their situation, they are literally pulling themselves back all the time, and wondering why there seems to be no progress.
How much success and how much fulfillment you get in your life is directly proportional to the quality of your inner dialogue.
Since your inner dialogues are so important to your personal development, we really need to havea better understanding of the roles they play.
Our inner dialogue is constantly judging and evaluating. Whatever we see, hear or sense, our inner dialogue will give us a judgment of good or
bad, right or wrong, based on our past experiences. This is very important for our survival. If you see a snake, your inner dialogue will tell you it is dangerous; if you see a flower, your inner dialogue will tell you it is beautiful. Your inner dialogue plays the role of guardian, protecting you from danger.
However this inner dialogue is not always helpful when it comes to developing your personal power. Do you have a habit of saying the word "can't"? If you do, I suggest you eliminate this word from your language. This may be the most valuable suggestion I can give you. BE CAREFUL when your inner dialogue is telling you that you can't do something.
To protect you from danger, your inner dialogue has the tendency to avoid doing new things. Its intention is good, it is trying to protect you, but at the same time, it limits you too much . In order to grow, you must take on new challenges, learn to do new things. Suppose you want to make a million dollars but you've never done this before. You search the entire database of the past experiences stored in your mind, and can't succeed in finding a way. Your inner dialogue will conclude "You Can't". It will try hard to convince you that what it says is true, because it does not want you to be in danger. However, in reality you must learn new skills and the new mindset of a millionaire in order to have the new experience of making a million dollars. You will never find the solution in your old database.
Replace negative inner dialogue with positive Don't take for granted whatever your inner dialogue tells you. Think it one step further. Is what it says really true? Be aware of your negative inner dialogue, and replace it with a positive one. That is all you have to do to achieve a successful and more fulfilled life.
Since it is so simple, why isn't everybody doing it? There is only one reason and that is, not everyone knows what is good and what is not good. This may sound like non-sense, but it is true. The majority of people don't know what is good for them and what is not. When people have a problem, they go out to seek for solutions. They buy books, go to seminars, seek for mentor ships,
and hopefully these will solve their problems. Unfortunately, these things will never solve all their problems, unless they...
Change their approach. Only when they realize that the solution is not outside of them, but inside of them, will they start to solve their problems. If you forget everything I have told you so far, remember this: "There is a solution
inside you to every one of your problems". You don't have to go outside to seek for solutions; the solution is already inside you. There is a part of you that is eternal, which knows the answers to all your problems. You only need to get connected to it. Listen to this eternal part of you and you will never have any problems. This part of you knows what is good for you and what
is not, because it knows how the entire universe works, indeed it is the universe itself.
I don't want to confuse you by talking too much about your eternal self, or true self, I only want you to know you can have access to this huge power of the universe. When you have it, nothing is beyond your reach.
By listening to your true self more and more, you will know the right answers more and more. Eventually, you will replace your negative inner dialogue with a positive one. You don't have to work hard on this, it happens automatically once you get into the habit of listening to your true self.
Posted by: truck in Untagged on
Mar 11, 2011
I do not know what to say. I think I will be nearing the so-called panic mode. Since October I am panic attack free. Japan was hit by the tsunami and alert level 3 the highest alert in our place. We are a little bit far but judging from the news, it took away more than 20 km from the shore. I hope it will not reach our place since we are about 50 kms off shore. The tsunami will hit in an hour. Please pray for us. Will keep you posted.
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