You thought you had gotten rid of me!
I am back!
I just wanted to jump back in and tell how much better I am now. I still get the occasional PA, but they are few and far between. I've been on 2 cruises since I was last on here... and that's a miracle in itself-- I am terrified of water! I had told my husband that I would never
take a cruise-- but I sucked it up and took one 2 years ago and had the time of my life!
This past January we took another one and took our kids with us. (21 and 27). It was so fantastic to see their eyes when they saw the Caribbean for the first time. We took them to the beach on Grand Cayman and it was priceless. I had a PA on the airplane coming home.. but other than that, things went smoothly.
These past 2 years, the Lord has done wondrous things with my panic. I have learned to not let it control me anymore. I won't let it win. My husband has changed and that made a huge difference. He has also taken "ownership" of this disorder with me. He finally realized that this was something we both had to deal with.. not just me. I had struggled with it for 17 years and finally he realized that he could be helping the situation and not hurting it. I believe that was the biggest reason I am in remission. I just needed to know he supported me and at least tried to understand. I think the eye opener for him was that a male friend of ours told us during bible study that he was suffering from panic. He spoke in detail of what he was going through.... I finally had validation that I wasn't making this stuff up! It's real. And for my husband to witness a man who was just as strong and opinionated as he was be reduced to a quivering mass helped him to realize that this is real.
I am so sorry this friend is dealing with this, but glad that someone else can understand exactly what I am and was going through.
I just wanted to check in and touch base with a place that was also instrumental in my healing. I leaned heavily on this site to get me through the worst of my illness.
Thanks to all who were there with me several years ago!
Love to all!