Another update, years later. Prozac was the medication, that combined with behavioral and cognitive therapy allowed me to conquer and defeat my disorder. I continue to be 95% panic free! The only times I really feel my anxiety is driving (bridges and highway mostly) and when I allow myself to much caffeine. I never thought I could live a normal life again. When I heard about this site, I came on here to seek inspiration from those that said they have conquered there anxiety and are living a mostly normal life. Unfortunately I didn't find much or any of that. I wanted to write this because I want people to know: I went from such a low in my panic disorder that I did not leave my home for 3 months to driving hours in the car, working, socializing, and doing the simplest of things that were a nightmare for me (such as grocery shopping, going out to dinner, the movies, etc).
I have within the past 6 months (1/2 year) cut down on my Prozac. I was on 1 10 mg of Prozac once daily. I cut my medication down to 3 times weekly successfully, to now just 1 pill twice weekly. I take one Monday night and 1 Thursday night. This dosage has been successful for me for a total of 3 months. I am hoping to cut down to 1 pill once weekly very soon. I have successfully been off of my Xanax for almost 1 full year now. I have not even taken one situationally, However, I always keep them on me "just in case". Call it a safety net, but hey, if that's what I need, then that is okay. I am so proud of myself. I would love to be medication free by 2013.
I have not had a full blown panic attack in 4 years. I have had very few small attacks here and there when I have been driving. I am still with the same boyfriend I previously blogged about (when I had only been dating him for a few months). Now we have been together 2 1/2 years. We plan on moving in together very soon and I couldn't be happier.
I hope everyone is doing well and to those that are at a low in their life, I hope you seek refuge in this post and know that you can have a normal life with minimal anxiety. I havent been on this site in sadly years and recieved a message via e mail notification that ended up being a scam but was happy i signed on. I re read some of my old posts and all the support I received on here. This site was a KEY tool in my recovery. I love you all and thank you for all the support I have received throughout the years. Please everyone, don't EVER give up on your fight to kick your anxiety in the butt! I did it and I'm finally LIVING my life and enjoying it when I once was suffering thought it. You can all do it too!
Much love <3