I've had the panic since I was a kid. I did avoidance but it never turned into full on agoraphobia.
I don't mind the anesthesia, I mind the IV they put it in
I have a fear that I'm going to end up as bad as ever after all this medical stuff is done and running into people that have to see the anxiety get really bad before being willing to allow anything to be done. At least I have an MP3 player this time.
As far as insomnia, I've got like 9 hours of sleep since I last woke up at 7pm on Monday. It's 10pm on Thursday.
I don't think I can bring myself to do SSRIs. I had a terrible time when messing with those chemicals.
The same .25mg Xanax has been working for me for 7 years and the only major change is I no longer ever take 1/4s and 1/2 is getting rare. But once I quit going to doctors and just went to my dentist I stopped being aggressive trying to change and just lived with what I had. I'm having moments that are really looking up with this new doctor.