Hello all! I haven't posted on here in a while, but that is a good thing because I haven't had a very serious panic attack in two months! There have been a couple of close calls, and I deal with my anxiety every day, but other than that life is going well.
I have been dieting, have quit smoking for two months now, and there's only one obstacle I find myself unable to cross: exercise.
I joined a gym because I read all the amazing benefits of exercise for stress, depression, and anxiety. I started doing cardio and lifting, but I discovered that the key thing I worry about with my anxiety is the health of my heart.
So when my heart rate starts climbing, I start getting that same old dialogue between my anxiety and the rational part of my brain.
"Are you sure your heart can take this? Remember what happened last time you had a panic attack?"
"I'll be fine. The doctor said I am okay to exercise and my heart is just fine. Stop it."
"Yes but, you never know. Something might go wrong. You might work your heart too hard and IT'LL EXPLODE OR SOMETHING!"
"....Really? Oh crap..."
So is it a fear of exercise or a fear of a rapid heart rate? This is what I'm trying to figure out, and I hope my fellow Panic Survivors can help me out with this issue. My logic knows exercise is good for me and my anxiety, but my anxiety seems to have convinced me otherwise. Thank you all.