Comments for Disappointed in myself. at http://www.panicsurvivor.com , comment 1 to 3 out of 3 comments http://www.panicsurvivor.com Wed, 19 Jun 2013 07:52:42 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=Disappointed-in-myself..html#comment-13012 Aimmy, I have been wondering how you are. I am sorry to hear that you've not been doing great. Please don't get down on yourself. We all have our setbacks and progress never seems to happen at the pace we want it too. I know if I was doing as well as I wanted to be - I be my normal self again. Right now I'd be outside planting instead of inside in my pajamas on the computer!! I slept for 2 days this week too. I did great for two weeks and this week I feel like I've gone several steps back. I don't have phone phobia - my oldest daughter does and I can sympathize completely. She used to flat out refuse to make a call, so I would make the call for her and get her to the right person & then give the phone to her. I know this probably didn't help her in the end, but at times we all need a bit of help to get over the bumps in life. I am sure your doctors and counselors have not given up on you. They are probably waiting for you to call and let them know when you can come in and talk with them. The call to your Grandmother - I know when I was down, I didn't talk to anyone for weeks. I just couldn't make myself answer the phone or call anyone. Maybe at this point you can send her a card and let her know you haven't been feeling well, but love her and will call when you can. I have also researched co-dependency & don't feel like I fit the true medical guidelines, but I feel like some of my daily actions and reactions fit the bill correctly. I don't know what the doctors would call it, but whatever it is - it has to be very close. It is extremely hard to make yourself get up and out when your spouse is also sleeping and down. Right now my husband is sound asleep and I am trying to motivate myself to get up and get moving - very hard to do. I do find that if I force myself to start, it does get easier. Wish I had some answers for you - just want you to know you are not alone. We will get there eventually. It is just going to take us a bit longer than we want it to. All My Best, Norell - inspired Sat, 15 May 2010 14:44:00 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=Disappointed-in-myself..html#comment-13003 Ok, so I just tried looking stuff up on Codependence and it didn't quite fit. Can anyone tell me if they know any other terms for when someone feels they can't do things on their own? It's sort of like I'm afraid of being alone, but not exactly. It's more a sense of anxiety than fear. And it's like I don't know who I am or how to do anything if alone. I think it might be connected for me to the whole housework problem. That I tell myself all the things I "should" do, and then get panicked and can't do them, and don't know what else to do with myself. Perhaps it's part of the whole thing where I'm not even any good at relaxing, because mentally I'm always beating myself up over not accomplishing anything. Somehow, though it doesn't take it away, if someone else is just relaxing I beat myself up less about relaxing. - Aimmy Fri, 14 May 2010 20:34:03 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=Disappointed-in-myself..html#comment-13002 Oh for cryin out loud! Now he won't get up. I never feel like my day is started if he isn't up. Maybe I should look some stuff up on codependency. I've mentioned it in therapy and all I got for an answer to how to deal with it was to try to do things on my own. Great. That's like telling me to try to calm down when I'm having anxiety. Tell me HOW. I don't even understand it, I was so independent in my youth. But then, I guess it's all a matter of developing this disorder. I used to be able to walk alone at night too, something that even the thought of makes me panic now. - Aimmy Fri, 14 May 2010 20:25:47 +0100