Comments for New to this at http://www.panicsurvivor.com , comment 1 to 2 out of 2 comments http://www.panicsurvivor.com Thu, 09 Feb 2012 21:31:48 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=New-to-this.html#comment-10776 I am glad you've found this site. I read almost every blog - new & old, before I joined. It was the best thing I ever did for myself. The people here are a gift and a blessing. You know you are not alone - what a relief for all of us who think no one will ever understand our pain. We all make mistakes in our lives. At the ripe old age of 54, I can't even count the mistakes I've made in my life. I am slowly, but surely learning to let go of the guilt I have held in for so many years & live in the moment. I am glad to hear you have a therapist. I think telling your therapist about exactly what happened that night(and in the past) & letting go of all of the anxiety, guilt and anger you feel will help a lot. You have to be completely honest, accept that it was a mistake and move on. I know, easier said than done!! I am reading a lot and learning to worry only about things I can change, develop a plan to make those changes & make the changes. I agree that a visit to a psychiatrist to check out medications is a good idea. No one here [b]wants[/b] to be on medications, but for a lot of us, it is something we need to change the chemistry in our brains. I have always hated going to the doctor, even at times when I know I should go. I don't like medications either - I've always thought if I just give it time it will go away. When my anxiety/panic and depression got very bad, I knew I had to go. I am so glad I did. The medications have helped me get to a place where I can make some changes in my life. The changes are hard. You have to take baby steps, but you can feel better. Remember you are not alone & you will feel better. All My Best, Norell (inspired) - inspired Sun, 07 Feb 2010 16:36:33 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=New-to-this.html#comment-10771 Sorry you aren't feeling well. There is hope though and a lot you can do. I've been on and off with this stuff for ten years and it still scares me. My fears revolve around health and death type of deal which it seems you are afraid of as well. There are a lot of self help books that can give you ideas. The best one I have is the Panic and Anxiety workbook. When you read it you will think they are writing about you! Most of the books describe people with anxiety perfectly. Have you talked to a therapist? You mentioned that you don't take any meds but meds might be able to help you. I wouldn't discount it. It seems the tipping point was the weekend you had. You did something out of character and it upset you and triggered everything. We hold a lot inside. So your career aspirations and relationships have been weighing on you and subconsciously come out via panic attacks. Or at least that's how I see it. I would start by going to a counselor. They can give you great recommendations. Good luck! - scoutty Sun, 07 Feb 2010 11:35:43 +0100