Comments for A long story about a weird week at http://www.panicsurvivor.com , comment 1 to 8 out of 8 comments http://www.panicsurvivor.com Thu, 09 Feb 2012 21:32:09 +0100 FeedCreator 1.7.2 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8989 Once again a well written blog with well written answers. Great insights by everyone with a lot of knowledge. I just want to add something in comparison like I always do. I do a little volunteer work in a nursing home. There are some people there with rare diseases or who have brain dammage or have tubes stuck in them from all directions. Ahuman bby is the most vulnerable baby on our planet. These people are more vulnerable than human babies. The most dependent helpless creatures on the planet. But you can see their illnesses and diseases. You can see the pain and how serious their conditions are. We on the other hand have to suffer the horrible condition of anxiety disorder and not show it. In fact people will make fun of us rather than say you poor soul. We have a double wammy to deal with. Members of your own family and your closest friends can't see you mental illness and so draw a conclusion that you are lazy or non social. When we see others, we don't see them for who and what they really are either. We see a smile or some emotion, but inside they too may be a time bomb. No one ever said life was fair. If they did they are either lieing or have a lot of money for their creature comforts. Let's all hang in there. Take care everyone.....Ed - Irish Mon, 07 Dec 2009 12:17:13 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8939 Thank you Anxious Lady for all these nice words - I know I am being hard on myself especially in the middle of the week and thank you so much for suggestions to do positive things, I know I just need to look everything from a different angle. I am very glad if you like my blogs :) and because you are happy you met me. :) Thank you so much once again! Mama, you know it all.. without you and HF some days would be truly unbearable and I'll never be able to thank you enough for that. I don't know if I would pass through these last two days without an attack because of all the fear of medication, but I did because we talked a lot and that means world to me. And yes, I am SO proud of each and every your accomplishment as well, you're a strong person and true inspiration that we can go on even when so many bad things challenge us. It will all pass, there are better days ahead. Thanks A LOT! - mel Sat, 05 Dec 2009 19:33:17 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8938 Thank you SO much mel for your kind words, they mean SO much and I want to thank you as well for helping me out SO much :) Laughter sometimes is the best medicine. You and HF are the best ! Again, I am so proud of you for going to the dentist. It's amazing how we anticipate the worse and when we look back at it,we can say, "Well, I survived that, was it really that bad?" Of course at the time, we think it's the worse we ever felt but when we look back, we think "It wasn't that bad, I guess." And like I've told you before, people who don't even have anxiety issues DO fear the dentist! So, you are deff. NOT alone there :) I'm also glad you went shopping, you deserved that :) I am so sorry about the bad derealization you have been experiencing, I have too and I hate that. I seriously think I would rather have a full blown attack then have to deal with that all the time. At least the attack only lasts but so long. I am glad we got to chat this morning [afternoon, your time] and you sounded a lot better. I hope you're having a nice, relaxing evening w/ very minimal anxiety:) (((HUGS))) Laura - mama2three Sat, 05 Dec 2009 17:46:30 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8935 Your blog was so interesting. You really do come across some colorful people in your life. You are too hard on yourself--you do so much even when you feel so lousy! I know it's difficult to depend on other people, but right now that's what you need, and so please don't feel badly about that. There will be better days and you will get to where you want--it just takes time---and it's O.K. to get angry when you can't do what you want or have to fight so hard to just do the simplest thing. Just remember: You ARE doing things! Make a list of the things you are doing and you will probably surprise yourself at how much you are accomplishing. Please, don't get bogged down in what you see as failures--and our memory can be very selective---concentrate on remembering the "good days and feelings". And please keep blogging, you write such interesting narratives which bring me a lot of joy and makes me very happy to realize that I've " met" someone that is such a nice and interesting person. - Anxious Lady Sat, 05 Dec 2009 17:01:02 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8911 George, you have always really wonderful things to say and you make me feel better when I read it, it's truly helping :) thank you very much! And thank you very much for thinking that I write well, if you feel you're right here where I am, then I do manage to describe my feelings and my life successfully and I am happy if I do :) I felt so down two days ago and just that present moment seemed so fixed and dull, but I do cling to hope, true depression never lasts really long. Thank you very much again for believing in me, and for the beautiful vision of future days. May that really come true and may true happiness and joy accompany you along your own road, too. I won't give up, I promise, I'll treasure that hope and those beautiful dreams :) All the best to you! - mel Fri, 04 Dec 2009 14:04:47 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8910 Patty, thank you very much for your comment, I am very glad if I helped you and above all I am SO glad to know that you're doing a lot better now, thank God really. We all want just to act normal, it is especially hard for me to depend on others when before I was doing things almost entirely on my own and for others - I mean if I always depended on people, I guess that would be the way to live, I wouldn't know better.. but this way memories of how things used to be can be truly unbearable sometimes. I know I am not alone, you're not either and we all here help each other to get over hard moments. Some are harder than others, but it's important that we all understand how the others feel. There are so many people with manageable anxiety in this world who do self-medicating with various substances, that's so true, but you know what, when anxiety is manageable, I mean when you have it but it doesn't block you or make you think about it all the time, many people really don't think they have some problem. When it gets out of control like it happened to us, therapy and medication are inevitable, it is just important to find the right ones. And yes, struggle can be really hard and we all tend to have the right words and the right things to say to the others, but when it comes to applying it to ourselves especially if anxiety messes badly with our concentration and thought flow, it can get so hard. But we won't give up! :) Anticipatory anxiety is horrible and when you clearly think about it, it is against all logic, I mean you lie down safely in your bed and feel like mad dogs are chasing you just because like 12 hours later(?!) you have to go somewhere, but only people like us know how painful and unbearable that can be. That's great that you started doing something nice for yourself, I guess it truly is the key in your case, you've been doing too much only for others for too many years, it is time that Patty takes care of Patty finally :) Stay there with those meds and bear in mind that it has to take months to get truly back on the track if they are working, and even if you feel ok, your doc will probably advise to take the AD for at least year and a half to prevent relapses. Be careful, and when docs decide that the time comes for stopping meds do it VERY SLOWLY. Who cares if it takes a bit more time that way, that's the only way to truly minimize any side-effects. All the best! - mel Fri, 04 Dec 2009 13:54:08 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8889 Dear Mel, When I read your blogs, I feel as if I am right there with you. That must sound pretty crazy. Mel you have a gift for telling your story. I hang on by every word as your narrative flows from the sardonic to the sublime. There is an elegance about you that defies description. But I cannot help feeling concerned about the situation you are in. Although you handle it all with courage and grace, I have the impression you are resigned to your present state. You must always hold on to hope. The dreams you dream are the province of your own spirit. Dreams are the things which lift us. Hope sustains us. You deserve all of the happiness this world has to offer. Someday you will find those things. Your load will be light and you will step out into the warmth of a bright and sunny world that waits impatiently for you. Always, George - Gilligan Thu, 03 Dec 2009 21:34:18 +0100 http://www.panicsurvivor.com/index.php?option=com_myblog&Itemid=72&lang=en&show=A-long-story-about-a-weird-week.html#comment-8887 I know how you feel about not being able to go out without a babysitter and having to be babysitted at home. That was one of our discussions today in group therapy. I just want to be normal without having to depend on other people. I also have weird friends and have weird days like that. If it makes you feel any better you are not alone in this. There are more people in this world with anxiety than you or I even know about. It seems like in my world most people have anxiety. It's funny but the people who admit they have anxiety and get treatment for it, are labeled the people with mental problems, but yet you have half the world self-medicating with drinking and pot who have the same thing as us but they wont admit it and they arre so called normal. Here we are taking antidepressants and benzos and we get labeled. Sorry I went off on a tangent but my mind has been wandering and your post made me think how much we struggle with this thing called anxiety. You hang in there because you have been a great help to me. Sometimes it is easier to help others than to help ourselves. Do something nice for yourself, and don't be so hard on yourself. Part of this disorder is anticipatory anxiety and try to stay in the present moment. I was told to ground myself when I started anticipating such as count my breaths, Get up and count every step I take, and to cheerlead myself. But the main thing is do something nice for yourself everyday. Today I soaked my feet in this foot soaking massaging thingy I have while I played a game on my computer. It was weird doing something nice for myself. I hoped I helped you a little. patty - PattyPanic Thu, 03 Dec 2009 19:52:26 +0100