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Sad

jordanmegan1@msn.com — Thu, 11 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Well I waved my daughter off this morning as she has gone away to a farm for a week with school , never been away from each other for more than a day so I'm feeling really anxious and upset right now. Praying my panic attacks dont get worse because I will be worrying about her every minute no doubt. Going to be a long week.

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liz071902@live.com — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

So I have been lurking around here lately. Not really posting or making my presence known, I've been going through some things. Some anxiety related some not so much. We are not getting our house after all, my sister threw a fit and we decided that maybe buying it off of her was not the best plan. On top of that my dad's health has really declined the last few weeks making the decision to stay with him even easier to make. I am disappointed because I love [...]

Recent Battles

mike.rann@hotmail.com — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Ok well after all of the feedback I got from the last blog I posted up I feel a little better about myself and about my religious thinking. That was a major issue that I was letting myself get way too worked up about. These other two things that I have been dwelling on lately I think are going to be a bit harder for me to deal with though.

1 - The loss of my drive. There's things I want to do, there's things I think about doing recently, but I am finding [...]

STILL ANXIOUS

Melly03_99@hotmail.com — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Hey friends, Melanie here... figured I havent been on a whole few days so come on and vent lol...

In all seriousness, the depression has lifted alot but I feel like I am at a little worse then square one. I have anxiety alot. I am taking my lexapro but barely any clonazapam (half of one .25 a day now) but am wondering if maybe I just need to take a dose of clonazapam every day .. a few maybe for the rest of my life. It is just frustrating... oh and a bigger dose.

I have managed t [...]

Memories of Divorce Suck.

norofel@hotmail.com — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

I was studying for Human Development. Nice course, I'm good with psychology and similar studies, so it's a nice break from Anatomy and Physiology. But, I came across a part detailing what NOT to do if you decide to divorce when you have children.

I started getting depressed and remembering that my parents breached a lot of that stuff. Like: Not using your child as a dumping ground for your emotional problems, not bringing the child in the middle of arguments, [...]

:)

Lisa.hadaway@googlemail.com — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Ok got one blog to post and save. Hoping I can begin to feel like a real part of the group now and not just an onlooker. Whatever work they did on the website yesterday it must have made a difference as have never got a blog to save before using my mobile internet. Hope it continues to work for me :)

Book, Psychiatrist and God

afrocuban@optonline.net — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Well i went to see my psychiatrist this past weekend and practicurly begged him for more than 30xanax. he gives me a prescription for 30 dat is supposed to last 3 months. I told him how it helps me and knowing they are there in case i need them helps. i never get to take the 30 within the 3 mnths and i told him that. As he is writing the prescription for 60 he stops and says many things as to why he is not happy with giving me more than 30. One being that they are very addictive and two being th [...]

Testing

Lisa.hadaway@googlemail.com — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Ok so once again testing to see if I can get my blogs to save. Fingers crossed :)

Anxious Ailments!

aburgess52385@yahoo.com — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

I am so sick of this anxiety. Everyday is something else. A couple of days ago I woke up with chest pains and tightness. Now plus that I have ringing in my ears and I've been getting really nervous when I talk. Like I can hear myself and it doesn't sound like me.

I can't stand juggling all these issues that are practically nonexistant but their there because of this frickin anxiety. I've had everything!!! Ear ringing, chest pains, eye twitching, spotty vision. If I'm lucky, the symptom event [...]

Me again ;)

amynlawrence@gmail.com — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

I want so bad to not be afraid anymore. I don't want to constantly feel like there is going to be someone waiting around the corner to jump out at me (panic). This medication change has really been the pits. My pdoc thinks we were dropping my zoloft too fast, so we upped it back to 75mg, but kept my lexapro at 10. I am very uncomfortable taking both of these drugs at the same time, but I know my doctor wouldn't do anything to harm me. The klonopin is helping, but the anxiety is still [...]

Need some experienced advice

mike.rann@hotmail.com — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Happy to see the new site up and running, the new shout box is pretty cool lol. I'm still having trouble here, I guess if I had to compare it to early on I would say there's improvements, or atleast I've become used to the way I feel. Which is, not much. My fear lately is of losing it. I wouldn't necessarily say that it's fear of me hurting somebody, which I do fear a little bit, it's more a fear of losing control of myself. Like one day I'm gonna wake up, and not be in control. I'll just [...]

NOT GOOD

babyrainebow@shaw.ca — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

since i woke up, ive had extreme anxiety, close to panic. i cant stand it. ive been chizzling pieces of my xanax off so i can relax. i havent really touched them in months cause of preg. but it seems not to be doing anything. i cant relax, my heart is constantly pounding............

My Diagnosis

bekah75034@gmail.com — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

My Story begins at my place of employment. I was working in a call center, in an ity bity cube that I was sharing with 5 other people. I had just gotten off a good call, which means, the customer was easy to deal with. It was time for my break and as I was sitting outside smoking, my vision started to go. Naturally, I started to freak out. The blindness didn't come suddenly, it came in a sweeping motion from my right eye and then into my left eye. My heart started to feel as if it were going to [...]

Still Not Driving

designfetish@gmail.com — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

So the last time I drove my car was to pick up and drop off a friend of mine from the Metro, about 1/4 mile from my apartment about 2 weeks ago.

I've been unable to drive anywhere, no matter the distance, for almost 6 months now. Even my local Whole Foods, that is no more than 1/2 mile from me, can't do it. I haven't been able to even drive to my local post office to send one of my best friends her birthday present. And her birthday was in February.

Ups and Downs

nicob2327@yahoo.com — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

I'm so tired of struggling with this illness. Some days i can function fine (like yesterday) then today i can't.... had to leave work early. I just want to LIVE NORMALLY!! I feel as tho some family and friends think it's just in my head... that i can just shut this off...be normal, act normal, that it's just a thing for attention.. WHAAAT?!! completely not the case. i just don't know what to do anymore. My work has given me 2 options- either work my days i'm suppose to [...]

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Tiffheartsethan@gmail.com — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

The past few days I feel like my chest pains are different. It feels like my heart is being squeezed and pulled on. It actually HURTS and makes me feel like I need to put my hand on my chest. I haven't been to the ER for this kind of stuff since last July and before that it had been over 2 years. I always feel stupid going in because my "what if" thinking has me convinced I'm dying, but they always say I'm fine...I feel like I waste their time and after I leave they roll [...]

VICTORY

Melly03_99@hotmail.com — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Just had to share, I went and picked her up and came back home all by myself.. her dad got here ten minutes later but hey I did it right???? Her dad is such a jerk cant wait to be done with him.

Tomorrow he is supposed to go work again, think he might actually go. So he is going to take her to daycare and I am going to go pick her up and bring her home while he is at work a few blocks away. She should be with me tomorrow hopefully four hours alone. I know this is dragging but all o [...]

Horrible Day

amynlawrence@gmail.com — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Yesterday we adjusted my doses again and I had panic attacks last night. Today I woke up thinking I was fine, but have been anxious all day and now am having constant panic attacks. I keep feeling so lightheaded like I am going to fall over. My eyes feel weird too, like they are going to bug out of my head. It constantly seems like everything is in motion. Does anyone else get this? I can't concentrate on anything, everything is making me dizzy.

This feeling today is scaring the cra [...]

Temazepam?

jordanmegan1@msn.com — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Well having a really bad night, cant seem to calm myself down.. Doctor prescribed me 5 days worth of temazepam to try and help me sleep but still havent take any as I'm worried about taking them.

Has anybody ever had this medication.. I live alone with my daughter and I'm worried they will make me really groggy or knock me out and I wont hear her if she needs me in the night (she's 10 but still my baby) lol.

Really dont want to take one but also want to get some [...]

Frustrated

Melly03_99@hotmail.com — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Well after getting ready for the big plan to pick up daughter turns out her dad didnt go to work down the street. So now I am sitting here trying to convince myself to go pick her up anyway. I dont know why this is so scary to me. Its like I have a phobia of being alone with my own kid.. and it really starting to drive me nuts. FOR REAL.... I just want to get past this.. and yet I am terrified to go get her...