When I first joined this site last year I told myself that I would not write my survivor story until I had dealt with this disorder for at least one year.  That time has now come and passed. 

I grew up without any anxiety.  I often would get overly worried about health issues at times, but that was the only time I ever really worried.  I never felt stress, and I certainly never got stressed out over anything in my life.  I had a fantastic upbringing, and my demeanor was laid back, cool, calm, confident, able to take command of a classroom or speak in public with the greatest of ease.  I was that guy who could make friends or hold a conversation with practically anyone.

Anxiety, a very big word which I’ve fought to beat more then ten years... And at the end
i consider my self that I won on it and K.O. it from my life...and i am writing here
because i felt every thing going with each one of you and i really care to assist any one
who has passed in what i passed in and who has felt what i was feeling too...               

Yea damn 60 mg.  I started on Paxil when I was 14...that stuff messed me up real good.  Mood swings I was nuts.  Finally I got onto Celexa which has been treating me better. I also stopped smoking weed because I smoked some stuff (which I can only assume was laced) and had a psychotic break...it wasn’t pretty spend a weekend on the 4th floor of the hospital... (loony bin) that place scared me.  Anyways it all started when I joined kindergarten.

I have never posted on this site, but I have read many of your blogs. A little bit about myself. I have panic attacks. You wouldn't know it though. I'm a sucessful college student. I don't have any social anxiety. I have tons of friends and am never akward during social situations. I also have a girlfriend and have had many successful relationships. I am not depressed and I love my life. Anyway, I realized today something that I believe from this point is going to help me and I wanted to share it. My father is a former drug abuser (two years clean) and I went with him to a NA meeting. One of the people at the meeting "shared" a story about himself dealing with drugs that I believe relates to all of the disorders on this site. He siad:

There's this POP up thing on the top of the site that says something about installing our toolbar...

 What is that? 

I've Created a toolbar that you can install on your browser (IE or Firefox) that is Google based meaning it does Google Searches just like the Google toolbar does but also has some other very neat "PS" features.  For instance it runns a ticker of the Blog Postings.  So you can always see the latest posts and go directly to them.  It has a few other gadgets etc as well.  The Toolbar is made using Conduit.com which makes toolbars for many other major sites such as Major League Baseball (MLB),

You can see a preview of the toolbar and it's functions here: http://panicsurvivor.ourtoolbar.com/ 

It has an uninstall feature if you don't like, guranteed spam free, and it will help you stay connected with PS and all of your friends here!

Please bare with me, my writing is that of an amateur and my story is a little long...I have always been pretty aware of my surroundings and always worried too much whether people had the best of intentions where I'm concerned and what they were capable of. But all in all I managed to live a pretty normal life, no panic attacks that were obvious to others and an active social life. All that changed on December 27th 2005.