Wednesday, 05 November 2008
I don’t feel good. I never feel good. I had a bad night last night. Woke up at 3:30am and was on my way to a panic attack. I had a stomach ache and I’m pretty sure that’s what brought on the attack. I have such an intense fear of vomiting that it really takes me over at times. I know it’s not that big of a deal but in my head it is the worst possible thing in the world. Any way I’m sure that’s why I had the attack. It took almost an hour for my stomach to settle and my panic to subside so I could go back to bed. I then woke up at 6am for work and still had that shaky feeling. I haven’t had an attack in the middle of the night in a while, but looking back on last night I should have known it was coming because of that off feeling I had in the evening. O well.
So I have been upset lately about all these medical problems I have been having. I have been tested for everything it seems. And I am starting to feel like I’m going nuts. Over all I just feel like shit. Here is a list of all my symptoms:
Constant headaches that radiate behind my left eye
Diarrhea or constipation
Panic attacks, anxiety
Short of breath
Just an overall feeling of blah
I’m sure there are other things too. I just can’t think of them right now.
I feel like no one takes my seriously any more. I always complain about this or that that no one even listens anymore. I’m not making this up. I feel sick all the time. So on to my newest revelation….. My parathyroid needs to be removed. I have my surgery scheduled for January 20. I have a growth on my parathyroid. I went to the ENT and she also said I have big polyps up in my nose, hence the headaches. So of coarse I googled parathyroid to see what it was all about. Look at what I found.
A majority of people with hyperparathyroidism have no signs or symptoms. In those who do, the symptoms frequently come on slowly and are usually subtle, such as a feeling of weakness or fatigue, or vague aches and pains. But more severe signs and symptoms of hyperparathyroidism can develop over time, including:
- Increased thirst and urination due to increased excretion of calcium in your urine (hypercalciuria)
- Kidney stones
- Abdominal pain
- Nausea, vomiting or loss of appetite
- Thinning bones (osteoporosis), leading to an increased risk of fractures
- Confusion or poor memory
- Muscle weakness or fatigue
My eyes nearly fell out of my head. That is me. I have that!!!! So in getting my parathyroid removed (or part of it). Some of my problems may go away!! I’m not nuts. I’m not making up all this stuff. If it was up to me they could take the stupid out now!! Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? God I hope so. This may be my only chance to get some relief.