I don’t feel good. I never feel good. I had a bad night last night. Woke up at 3:30am and was on my way to a panic attack. I had a stomach ache and I’m pretty sure that’s what brought on the attack. I have such an intense fear of vomiting that it really takes me over at times. I know it’s not that big of a deal but in my head it is the worst possible thing in the world. Any way I’m sure that’s why I had the attack. It took almost an hour for my stomach to settle and my panic to subside so I could go back to bed. I then woke up at 6am for work and still had that shaky feeling. I haven’t had an attack in the middle of the night in a while, but looking back on last night I should have known it was coming because of that off feeling I had in the evening. O well.

So I have been upset lately about all these medical problems I have been having. I have been tested for everything it seems. And I am starting to feel like I’m going nuts. Over all I just feel like shit. Here is a list of all my symptoms:

Constant headaches that radiate behind my left eye

Upset stomach

Dizziness

Weakness

Diarrhea or constipation

Kidney stones

Panic attacks, anxiety

Depression

Short of breath

Just an overall feeling of blah

I’m sure there are other things too. I just can’t think of them right now.

I feel like no one takes my seriously any more. I always complain about this or that that no one even listens anymore. I’m not making this up. I feel sick all the time. So on to my newest revelation….. My parathyroid needs to be removed. I have my surgery scheduled for January 20. I have a growth on my parathyroid. I went to the ENT and she also said I have big polyps up in my nose, hence the headaches. So of coarse I googled parathyroid to see what it was all about. Look at what I found.

• Increased thirst and urination due to increased excretion of calcium in your urine (hypercalciuria)
• Kidney stones
• Abdominal pain
• Nausea, vomiting or loss of appetite
• Thinning bones (osteoporosis), leading to an increased risk of fractures
• Confusion or poor memory
• Muscle weakness or fatigue

My eyes nearly fell out of my head. That is me. I have that!!!! So in getting my parathyroid removed (or part of it). Some of my problems may go away!! I’m not nuts. I’m not making up all this stuff. If it was up to me they could take the stupid out now!! Is there a light at the end of the tunnel? God I hope so. This may be my only chance to get some relief.

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cedar said:

	... Thank goodness you got checked out physically!!!! Wouldn't it be wonderful if you get the thyroid tthing gone and all of your symptoms disappear. I pray that is the case!
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cedar said:

	... Thank goodness you got checked out physically!!!! Wouldn't it be wonderful if you get the thyroid tthing gone and all of your symptoms disappear. I pray that is the case!
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Kellybeth said:

	... That would be amazing! I can't wait to see what hapens and how I will feel when it's gone!
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Kellybeth said:

	... That would be amazing! I can't wait to see what hapens and how I will feel when it's gone!
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rippelk2 said:

... It sounds like you are a VERY smart woman. Although you feel like this, you are being so strong. And I do hope when you get this surgery some of these feelings will subside. I can't even imagine the kidney stones, I heard they are one of the most painful things and am so sorry you have to go through all of this. Just some advice that helps for me, I dont' know if it'll help for you, but when I have a really bad stomach ache I lay on my back on my bed and always put a pillow under my blanket on my stomache and hold my hand on it. Mine you my pillow is smaller and really squishy (I love it!) so it's not a normal sized pillow. But for some odd odd reason, it makes me feel better. and I fall asleep comfortably after many trips to the bathroom... I hope everything works out for you! :) (((hugs))) p.s. we understand you and are here to listen to you. I believe that what you are feeling is real and anyone that doesn't take you seriously isn't worth talking to...

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rippelk2 said:

... It sounds like you are a VERY smart woman. Although you feel like this, you are being so strong. And I do hope when you get this surgery some of these feelings will subside. I can't even imagine the kidney stones, I heard they are one of the most painful things and am so sorry you have to go through all of this. Just some advice that helps for me, I dont' know if it'll help for you, but when I have a really bad stomach ache I lay on my back on my bed and always put a pillow under my blanket on my stomache and hold my hand on it. Mine you my pillow is smaller and really squishy (I love it!) so it's not a normal sized pillow. But for some odd odd reason, it makes me feel better. and I fall asleep comfortably after many trips to the bathroom... I hope everything works out for you! :) (((hugs))) p.s. we understand you and are here to listen to you. I believe that what you are feeling is real and anyone that doesn't take you seriously isn't worth talking to...

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