I thought I was doing really well coping with everything going on in my life.  Then my house fell out of  escrow causing me great distress.  Even though I tried to take it day by day I stuggled to stop thinking about the future...not selling the house, my daughter in PA, making trips back and forth from CA to PA. 

So we ended up driving my car to PA as previoulsy planned and having my stuff shipped....it was all set to go when the sale didn't go through.  The drive went okay.  When we got to my sister's she and her one son were sick with the flu.  Ashley had a cold. Well her cold progressed and we ended up in the ER-ear infection.  We then had 4 nights of being up with her half the night.  Then I got sick.  So the trip was exhausting. 

 The last three days before I was going to be returning to PA, I had intense anxiety.  WHen I got on the plane it continued and I had a minor anxiety attack but managed to get through it,  Later that night at home, I had the worst attack I have ever had.  My stomach had been upset all night.  Then I felt like I was going to throw up.  The terror grew and I got very dizzy and lightheaded and sweaty.....I swear I looked like  a ghost I was so pale.  THAT TOTALLY FREAKED ME OUT.  I started shaking and crying and thought I was going to lose it.........it was outrageous.  It took about ten minutes to get under control.  And now today I feel really weird.....tired and like my body is not really working properly.....like I am not attached to my limbs... extreme fatigue.

Even though I know what this is.....it really upset me.  I have so many things I have to accomplish yet and right now I feel so debilitated.  I know it will pass....but it hasn't been easy.  lamy

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Kellybeth said:

	... Lamy, you are being so strong! You have a lot of life changing things happing in your life right now. Having a big attack like that is awful. Once all this stuff comes together with your house, and it will, you can start your new chapter. There are great things to come to you, you just have to get over this hurdle is all. You are so strong you will be able to do it!
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Kellybeth said:

	... Lamy, you are being so strong! You have a lot of life changing things happing in your life right now. Having a big attack like that is awful. Once all this stuff comes together with your house, and it will, you can start your new chapter. There are great things to come to you, you just have to get over this hurdle is all. You are so strong you will be able to do it!
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scooby said:

... Dear lamy, It has been a huge year for you, lots of changes. I'm sure you know, even though we get through the drama while it is happening, it catches up with our overwhelmed minds before long, and the anxiety hits! This is just a minor blip, don't expect to feel 100 percent all the time, especially now. Tomorrow is always another day, and there is always the chance it will be fantastic! Hope you feel better, I'm thinking of you. XX

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scooby said:

... Dear lamy, It has been a huge year for you, lots of changes. I'm sure you know, even though we get through the drama while it is happening, it catches up with our overwhelmed minds before long, and the anxiety hits! This is just a minor blip, don't expect to feel 100 percent all the time, especially now. Tomorrow is always another day, and there is always the chance it will be fantastic! Hope you feel better, I'm thinking of you. XX

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