OK, so I should be feeling better about this because I have done it once already by myself completely but I can't help but get anxious and panicky about this tomorrow. I am traveling from CT to wash. D.C.  tomorrow to see my boyfriend who i CANT wait to see!!! It is SUCH a long train ride and of course I am scared of getting sick on the train because that would be so miserable. But hopefully I wont. I doubt I'll get sleep tonight because my mind will be racing and my nerves on end. Last time b4 going to the train I was really ill all night long and all the next morning but forced myself to go and it turned out well :)

 Tomorrow, for the second time I will be getting a taxi from my dorm to the train station at 6:45 in the morning BY MYSELF. I will be figuring out the train and the track once i'm in the station BY MYSELF. I will get on the train and find it BY MYSELF. I am going to get off in union station in D.C. and figure out the metro BY MYSELF, I will have to transfer metro trains (colors) after 2 metro stops and figure that out BY MYSELF. I will then have to get a taxi out of the station BY MYSELF and get to my boyfriends building and wait for him to get out of work....This is a whirlwind, but it is very stressful and panic stricken for me. I'm going to do it though. Hope I can get through it all. Definitely taking an extra xanax tomorrow though and I'm not having ANY shame in that!  Wish me luck!!!

 I'm trying this new thing where I'm trying to be positive...it's a lot harder then it seems it would be...

ahhh!

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substance said:

... ok so heres the thing hun....you are never alone...these people at the stations and the people on the trains they will help you...stop thinking that u are by urself cause ur not...people are more willing to help then us panic ridden people could ever imagine. dont be afraid to ask someone for help. also remember that there are maps at those stations and officers everywhere to help u ... u will be fine i promise just focus on seeing ur man and if u get sick...then u just get to be pampered by ur man even more. but you could use a break and this sounds likei it will be perfect...keep your head up hun u can do this

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rippelk2 said:

	... I DID IT!!!! And I did it all by myself!!! I am now in his apartment and waiting for him to get back from work! yay! I rock! I kicked my panics A$$!!!! :grin
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substance said:

	... YAAAAAAY i knew you could do it!!!! have fun and live it up!
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