Can you believe it???

 One year ago my hubby left for Iraq.  My heart was broken.  I was a mess.  I started taking zoloft, continued therapy, took care of myself.  Made new friends, continued with old friends.  Single parenting 2 boys who are doing great in school and out of school (I can hear my 12 year old practicing his guitar as I type.  I have fallen more in love with my husband, and can't wait for his return.  Everyday I face the anxiety monster and his friends the what - ifs and I should haves every day.  And 9 times out of 10 I win.  The off times are just that - an off time.  Not the end of the world.  Just a crappy feeling.

I am volunteering like crazy and I feel my creativity is at an all time high.  So many ideas - and I have the opportunity and the skills to make them happen!

90 days or less until he comes home.  I started Weight Watchers yesterday.   

With him leaving last year, I was so afraid to go anywhere or do anything.  All I did was to and from school for the kids, worked out and cleaned.  So I was thinner, richer, and living in an immaculate house.  Now thanks to zoloft and therapy, I weigh about 20 pounds more, I am shopping all the time, and my house is a mess.   So now that things are more under control anxiety-wise, I want to work on the other areas - organization, exercise, relaxation, making healthy choices, buying what I need, instead of want...

Thank all for being here for me this past year - home stretch now!

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Kellybeth said:

	... Wow. I can't belive how fast time goes. I remember when you first found out that your husband would be leaving. You didn't know how you would even get through the days. And now a year has passed! Good for you! You stood up and took charge for your family. I love that you said you are more in love with him now. That is just wonderful. ;)
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lamy12 said:

	... Earthmama~You are such an inspiration!! You have handled a really difficult situation and "kicked a**" You have been a great parent to your kids and learned that you can do anything you set your mind to do!! I am so proud of you!!! Thanks for sharing your journey. The countdown begins!!!! What a great reunion you will have with your hubby!! love lamy
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scooby said:

	... You have almost made it. I think it's awesome that you have the safe return of your husband to look forward to. You know, I recently read old letters that my grandfather wrote home during WW 2 - he was gone for 2 or 3 years, and the romance and love toward his wife and children at home was just beautiful. Keep up the great work!
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rippelk2 said:

	... I'm so happy for you that your hubby is coming back so soon! Now during the hard days, just think of all you've already been through and that is all in the PAST now, and you can look forward to an AWESOME future! Sounds like you are a great mom and you are kicking this panic and anxieties a$$!!! hahaha! must be a great feeling! Keep your head up!
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