Life has been pretty hard and my anxiety has flared up no end.  Someone I thought was going to be a life long friend has suddenly written me an email listing a bunch of weird reasons why we aren’t friends anymore.  I was really heartbroken.  This year a couple of friends have left my side, and even though I continue to make new friends, I’ve been left feeling vulnerable, depressed and needy.  Nevertheless, I went on a day bus tour last weekend and even though I was REALLY nervous and enlisting the cbt techniques I learnt about 2 years ago, and thinking up excuses why I shouldn’t go on the tour, I still went.  I was the quietest person on the bus, but I went and I managed to relax into it after about 3 hours.  What a pain!  I thought I was over the worst of it, it just goes to show I guess.  Oh well, hope everyone else is having more fun in their lives than me.

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ceejay said:

... Hey Shazza - so glad to see your face on here!!! Sorry things are not going well at the moment - but it sounds like you're able to handle even difficult things (like that "friend") really well! I'm glad to hear that! My life has its ups and downs, but all in all I"m okay! I have been doing a lot of focusing on "giving" lately. You should check out the 29-Day Giving Challenge. ( http://givingchallenge.ning.com/ ) I really like it and it has changed my focus - from fear and need, to abundance and generosity. One of the women on there has some amazing stories about "giving" and then all that she has received as well. Check it out!! In the meantime, know that you're much loved by me!

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ceejay said:

... Hey Shazza - so glad to see your face on here!!! Sorry things are not going well at the moment - but it sounds like you're able to handle even difficult things (like that "friend") really well! I'm glad to hear that! My life has its ups and downs, but all in all I"m okay! I have been doing a lot of focusing on "giving" lately. You should check out the 29-Day Giving Challenge. ( http://givingchallenge.ning.com/ ) I really like it and it has changed my focus - from fear and need, to abundance and generosity. One of the women on there has some amazing stories about "giving" and then all that she has received as well. Check it out!! In the meantime, know that you're much loved by me!

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shazza said:

	... **hugs Ceej** :) can't wait for this to pass.. will check out the site, thanks x
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shazza said:

	... **hugs Ceej** :) can't wait for this to pass.. will check out the site, thanks x
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