I am so frustrated right now. SO my husband could not work out his differences with my mom and she left and we have no one to watch my daughter. He finagled a ridiculous work schedule and proposed it to me so I would feel better that he was unwilling to work out the problems and keep her on to watch Ashley. I tried to tell him that his schedule was too much for anyone...let alone someone suffering with bipolar....but he knows best and said once my mom left he would have so much less stress. I tried to warn him that caring for a 3 year old is very demanding and stressful and his work schedule was ridiculous.....but nooooooooooooooo. He wants to do it and ef everyone else.
So it has been a week and a half with his new schedule. So far he has had a breakdown at the grocery store and my 12 year old stepdaughter had to walk my daughter home while the store gave my husband food/water and wanted to call an ambulance. The next two days he was so weak and tired and wanted me to stay home from work. Last night he put my daughter on the phone and one of my coworkers got the call. My husband was on the floor and was so weak he could barely move. He recovered after 15 minutes. And today he went to the doctor and got blood work done because he is convinced he is experiencing exhaustion. He refused to have his mother come over to help him and wanted me to stay home.
I cannot deal with this everyday. It is apparent he is not capable of caring for Ashley with this schedule. I am contemplating taking her to PA and having her stay with my sister and her family while I sell out house and move everything to PA. My husband thinks it will probably have to happen because he is so weak. And of course he is mad at me because I am not supportive enough of him and his needs. YEAH...it's always about you.
I know my daughter will get through the transition, but it will be so hard to be away from her for months.....even though I would visit here and there. THIS JUST SUCKS. I am so mad. I know it is not the end of the world and I can get through it....I am just mad right now.
Others have suggested I put her in child care somewhere but I am against that. And anyway.....I would still have no help at home and how would I get everything ready to move when I have to do everything for her and the house chores. F-it. I am so done with this drama. lamy