Monday, 21 July 2008
This mornings drive into to work was a blur. I don’t really remember driving it. I don’t remember stopping at red lights or passing other cars. I don’t remember turning down the usual streets I always turn down.
All I remember is feeling like I was at deaths door. I wanted to pull over or turn around and just go back home. But I didn’t my car just took me to work with no help from me.
It is strange when this happens. I lose myself. I feel like I stop thinking and stop breathing and stop blinking. I am just there along for the ride. I might as well have been dropped off by a space ship.
Am I putting other drivers in danger? Am I putting myself in danger? It seems like I am under the influence of some mind altering drug.
But I made it safe and sound. And here I sit at my desk. I know where I am, I’m just not sure how I got here.