Hi Everyone, Even though I have been a member of PS for quite some time I have never written a blog so here goes. I am finding my panic / anxiety  disappears for a while but always returns and catches me off guard. I have had a really bad week with lots of anxiety ( much of it health related, every little pain is scrutinized) and get really cranky with myself for wasting time. I don't allow my anxiety to stop me doing things but my enjoyment level is very low. I feel like I am always on guard and don't want to freak out in front of my peers / friends. What I am mean by on guard is always thinking about how I am feeling. I wish I could relax and enjoy things but it just doesn't seem to happen. This might sound a bit crazy but when I'm with my parents ( both have health issues, heart disease and cancer) I am worse. But i don't want them to know how I am feeling because they don't need any more worries. I wish I could just relax and enjoy their company. I just feel really frustrated at the moment and want to get on with actually living my life rather than just going through the motions. Sorry this sounds a little down in the dumps but that's how I feel at the moment. Looking forward to better times soon !

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ceejay said:

	... Hi jaygirl - Congratulations on your first Blog! It can be very helpful to just journal your thoughts out there! Don't be afraid! Say whatever -- use the smilies.... and you may find that the more voice you give to the fears and anxiety HERE, the less voice they have in your actual life! It works like that for me!
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ceejay said:

	... Hi jaygirl - Congratulations on your first Blog! It can be very helpful to just journal your thoughts out there! Don't be afraid! Say whatever -- use the smilies.... and you may find that the more voice you give to the fears and anxiety HERE, the less voice they have in your actual life! It works like that for me!
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