(Second part) I am a survivor from panic attack. I have experienced the worst of it (at least for me, it’s the worst days of my life). I can still remember what my psychiatrist told me, "Leave your place, and go seek your future in another place. Only when you detach from this place which give you too much memories of your mom and dad that you can start to live your life again. When you are there, start to fight the devil that makes you suffer (This is the things I am afraid to see... Sick people, injured victim, blood, dying, vehicular accident, even people I know who are ok but have hypertension or heart problem is more than enough to trigger my attack.

When I reach Manila, I still have relapse. But I do have medication with me so it’s ok. My first work was as a treatment officer in an ambulance service. I was assigned in the South Luzon Expressway, dealing and responding with Vehicular accident. Hahahaha!!!! It’s just so great that when I respond to my first vehicular accident, I just start to be numb and can't breathe. My Team Leader, Arriane was shouting at me. "Do something, help me with the victims." And that was it, my baptism with fire. I start to work, doing the job in a perfect sequence, focusing my energy towards the victims and the on - going traffic, stopping all the fast approaching vehicle n the expressway. Of course with back up from the Expressway Traffic Management Personnel. Doing the radio control with the emergency department hospital where are going to endorsed the injured victims. I was a day of a rush. And I didn't have the attack. I survived the first fight with the devil within me.

And now, guess where I’m working? In the Middle East; in south rub al kali, the vast quarter of emptiness in the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia. The nearest town is 350 km. And I'm maintaining an emergency clinic in oil and gas exploration crew composed of more or less, 700 personnel. I still have the unwanted visitor with me every now and then but it is obviously tamed.

 I wish and pray to hear people that they too have survived the crisis. Not for a 100% but a least you have tamed the devil.

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1. 06-05-2008 07:50

Thank you for sharing your story. It's great to hear from someone who has made it through. 
 
You are right that we have to conquer the panic then be brave enough to face the demons that caused it. I hope your devil never returns. 
 
Good luck

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2. 08-05-2008 18:48

WOW!!! It is people like you who make me believe that there IS hope! I don't know how you do what you do. I can't even imagine! You are a VERY strong person. Good for you!!! Keep it up! Thank you for your story!

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