I had pretty much shut myself off from my old life- certain people, volunteering at school, etc.

I am slowly getting back into it, because I was unhappy with out it in my life.  I told a friend today, after she has commented that I was slipping back into the groove, that it was on my terms this time.  I am not at the beck and call of everyone.  I have created my own volunteer program - I am in charge, but it is brand new and all mine.  I really cannot fail, since it hasn't been done!   It is not connected to the PTA (I am a recovering PTA President).  It is a tutor/mentorship program for 3-5th grader that are at risk for retention.

Anyway, I need be cognisent of the old patterns...saying yes to everything, being so busy that we eat out too much, neglecting relaxation time, me time, exercise, eating poorly....  

 More than seeing these patterns, I need to break them, replace them with positive patterns!

I know , I know easier said than done...

SHUT UP negative thoughts!  Why did I feel that I had to cut myself down like that, reminding myself that it would be hard?  Am I worried that you will think I am naive?  That optimism is stupid?  Much smarter to be a "realist" (pessimist)?

Ah ha - a pattern.  Negative self talk.  Interesting. 

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maddie said:

	... Naive, stupid, unrealistic, pessimistic? NEVER. I think you are brave and strong - a true survivor. Well done! :)
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ceejay said:

... Earthmama - It is amazing how often we believe that optimism is naive! I work in a mentoring program too, and I am always challenging the women I work with to risk the belief that it is going to work out! Take the risk to NOT worry! Take the risk to BE positive! Let the rule of self-fulfilling prophecy work, just do it by self-fulfilling the POSITIVE thoughts!! Your plan sounds great - be aware of old patterns, but be FOCUSED on new ones!!! Awesome!

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