I have found myself quite snappy lately.  I am unhappy with myself.  Through all of 2007 I was working hard to lose weight, really watching what I ate and exercising.  By summer, I had gone from 172 to 145, and was feeling pretty good about myself.  When my hubby left in September, then a month later starting Zoloft, more weight started dropping off.  I headed out to CA at Christmas feeling great about myself, and being down to 135.  Well between the fabulous food I had out there and the little exercise I gained a little.  Since New Years I feel like I am eating all the time, hungry? or bored? or lonely?  Now I am up to 145 again, and I feel disgusted with myself.  I am back to working out, but I just can't stop eating.  Junk too, I feel like I need sugar all the time.  A little bit isn't enough - no willpower!

My kids are great, but I feel like sometimes they talk at me instead of to me.  Both talking at the same time.  And all the mom?  Mom?  Mommy!!?? Mom? MOOOOOMMMM??? Mommy?  Why are you yelling?  If I didn't answer the first time, maybe I am busy, maybe I am in the bathroom, maybe I am on the phone?  And quit eating in my bed!  When you spill something, pick it up! If it is trash, put it in the trash can.

Waa!  Waaa!  Pity party.  You are all invited!

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rippelk2 said:

... aw, i get irritated too! and I am trying to lose weight too! it is impossible, you should still be feeling great though! that is a lot of weight lost from where you were, just re gain control, or choose healthier substitutes instead of sugary ones, and don't forget a treat here and there is fine :) just to let you know, i swear on pilates dvd's especially the windsor ones, they are fabulous and you see results in just about a week! 8)

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lamy12 said:

... I love those pity parties Earthmama!!!! I have them frequently. Sometimes it just feels like too much.....the kids, chores, trying to keep in shape!!! I try to remind myself that at least I am healthy. Right now I have a cold and WISH to be able to do all those "normal things" instead of feeling like crap. I always wish I could keep that feeling of appreciation of being healthy when I am back to doing those "fun" everyday life things. Anyway....minor set back in the weight gain.....won't take lonng to get back where you were!!!! lamy

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