My story of Anxiety and Panic |
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Sunday, 30 May 2004 |
Posted by: daybyday on Sunday, May 30, 2004
I am currently 28 year old Female married with 2 great children. I deal with anxiety and panic attacks regularly and searching for a remedy. Until then I keep trying several techniques and Surviving.
As a child and teenager I was always a very anxious person, I was very outgoing and physically very strong. I was never afraid to do a guy's job or run a couple miles. My parents had a very rocky marriage which I had to see unfold. I became pregnant at 18 and had a little boy. I used my aggressive nature to come out of the road I was heading. I worked very hard and never looked for charity. I succeeded and also bought my first house and got married by 25. My father suddenly died in 2001 at the age of 49. I was a wreck. His fiance stole over 100,000 dollars and took off.
I became so afraid to do anything in fear I would get sick and die. I never got that money back but I got peace in not fighting. A week after my father died I found out I was pregnant. I was ready to go on some vallium but couldn't so I made it through the pregnancy. Three months after my daughter was born I had a very out of the ordinary shortness of breath and chest pain. I was so scared I ran to the E.R. They quickly came to say I had a panic attack. There were a lot of visits to the E.R. the first couple months of these attacks. I finally started taking Xanax .25mg to curb the feelings.
It has now been almost two years since my first physical panic attack and they are still present. Some days I am able to just deal with it and other days they can scare me all over again. The best things that work for me is to STOP AND ACTUALLY THINK OF WHAT MY MIND IS THINKING ABOUT. TELL YOURSELF TO STOP. A lot of this is basically all in the mind and it becomes into a physical mode. Usually if you stop and see,you have been thinking unconsciously for hours about negative thoughts. I really try hard to get a hold on them because they are big triggers. I also embrace my family. They are the reason to enjoy life. If you don't have family, find something to love weather it be a hobby or something. Don't keep thinking of the future for the future is right now. Enjoy the moment. Always remember to breathe. Stop and look at everything around you. Get plenty of rest BUT don't be lazy and lay around the house, As much as you think it will help it actually makes it worse. Don't be embarrassed about panic attacks, you would be surprised how many people have them. I have always been open to everyone and never felt uncomfortable about that. Don't try and control everything, that is what God is for. I can go on forever with so many things I do to help me cope but I won't. I will leave this last one and it is, I have found it helps so much to know we are not alone. There is a lot of us out there and I get comfort knowing that. I get the chest pains,headaches,nausea,sensations and all that too. I have had every heart test and all is normal. I hope this helps others as it has helped me writing it all down.
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