It has been awhile...anxiety rearing it's head again

kireena624@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 Nov 2010 23:00:00 +0100

Well hello everyone. Old and new! I haven't been on in quite some time and especially haven't made the time to blog. I'm writing this now because I think my anxiety is rearing it's very uglyyyy head again. At my lowest point which was a very long time ago, to the point where I was able to go MONTHS (can you believe it?!) without anxiety...I think it's starting to come back again. I refuse to give into it or let it scare me too much because I know relapsing is a very real/e [...]

Rocked the Interview

kireena624@hotmail.com — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

Well, I rocked my job interview today. It was for a temp staffing agency and they kept saying how the jobs that I will be getting can always turn into permanent jobs and as for now, with all the temporary jobs I will be getting I will earn quite a lot of cash hopefully. I feel great right now, I look great because...this suit looks so great on me. I dunno what it is about professional clothes but they just make you feel so darn important haha. Even though they are incredibly uncomfortable.

JOB INTERVIEW!

kireena624@hotmail.com — Thu, 19 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

So, I FINALLY got a call back for one of the gazillion jobs I have applied for!!! Although, he called me when I was driving so that happened to be bad timing, but I went with it anyways haha. He seemed to really like me on the phone and asked me a bunch of questions and now we have an interview this upcoming Wednesday at 2:30 to test my skills and put me in a position that best suits me (hopefully, if I do in fact get placed anywhere). I'm SO EXCITED!..Then again, I'm sure I am going [...]

Forgotten Anniversary

kireena624@hotmail.com — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

I CAN NOT believe that I forgot my 3 year Anniversary for being quit smoking!!! It was yesterday, the 18th, and it just completely and utterly blew my mind away that I forgot!

So YAY ME!!! 3 years cancer stick free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

PISSED! >:-0

kireena624@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

I AM SO F*******N PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW I CAN'T EVEN HANDLE IT AND THIS IS WHY I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING WITH MYSELF OR I AM GOING TO FREAK OUT!

As you all know me and my ex just broke up a little less than 2 weeks ago after 4 years and I am still really upset but managing a lot better then I thought I would. He for some reason thinks that he can contact me whenever he wants to and then not reply to anything that I write back to him! HOW RUDE IS THAT!

I want closure and I want an [...]

More Hebrew.HELP!

kireena624@hotmail.com — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

I am getting driven crazy by my ex boyfriends status messages on facebook! I figured out the last one...I think. And now another one! It is driving me nuts, it really is and it is pathetic. Please, anyone that knows hebrew, translate this for me please!

"Hayom ha lev ko'ev" (I think that means: Today my heart pains) and before it said "Hayom a lev ko'ev...ani mitgahegeha"

Yeah he must of done something wrong with the last word.....

An [...]

Heart Ache...

kireena624@hotmail.com — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

As most of you know I am recently and freshly going through a break up with my boyfriend of 4 years. Our 4 year anniversary would have been tomorrow, Valentines day. (2/14/05) :*( I should be the happiest girl in the world right now because I should be with him right now, or in his apartment waiting for him to come home to me after he gets out of work... I was supposed to be in d.c. from tonight until the 22nd of this month. I was looking forward to 10 days with him so much and couldn't s [...]

Anxious...

kireena624@hotmail.com — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

Well I can say I have been doing pretty great with my anxiety levels alltogether, especially with how much I have been going through physically and mentally with this break up with my boyfriend on 4 years...but I am REALLY nervous about work the next 2 days.

My sister owns a consignment shop and I am working the next 2 days from open to close 10-5 all by myself the whole day long. I HATE being alone and having to run the store all by myself. And it isn't that I can't hand [...]

Hebrew

kireena624@hotmail.com — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

Does anyone on here speak fluent hebrew or can tell me what "Yom Echad" means??? Driving me CRAZY...my "ex" :( has a status on facebook and it just says Yom Echad...

The only people I know that speak fluent hebrew is him and his family and well, can't call them to ask. So i'm wondering what it means...It is driving me crazy...

I was searching online forever and I found something like Day One or something but it makes no [...]

Sounds of the Beach

kireena624@hotmail.com — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

I have been trying to not stay in my house because it only makes my current break up situation worse because I sit and stare at my computer hoping to hear something from him. I have honestly really suprised myself in how well I am doing. My appetite has mostly come fully back which is definitely a good thing because it is extremely unhealthy when you lose 9 lbs in a week!

Today I got together with my sister and both of our best friend, Heather. She lives a 10 minute walk away from [...]

Thank you

kireena624@hotmail.com — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

I want to thank everyone that replied to my last blog, and well all my blogs, but especially my last blog. It was the most simple blog I think I have ever written and yet the amount of support and love and strength and care I have gotten from everyone is just unbelievably heart warming. You all mean so much to me and the fact that you care and are offering your support...I can't tell you what that means...but I think you know because many of you have been affected and your heart warmed th [...]

Officially Single

kireena624@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

My boyfriend and I officially broke up today. Through e mail too. What a coward... I just wanted to update you guys but can't even begin the process of trying to explain anything now because I am physically sick...

Having a Hard time...

kireena624@hotmail.com — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 22:00:00 +0100

Me and my boyfriend of 4 years are going through a very hard time right now and might possibly be breaking up and going our separate ways even though we both love each other more than anything (so that's what makes no sense to me). I know many of you read my blog that said "my problem please read" but our very tough situation is described in there if you didn't and are curious. I was supposed to be moving in with him by next week...Anywho he has been massively depressed over [...]

Day Turned Around

kireena624@hotmail.com — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

So this morning I was really anxious for some reason. I didn't know why, but it was "one of those day", one of those "bad" days I talk about where sometimes you have a good day, sometimes an okay day and sometimes a bad day. I got to work fine and then out of no where, I just felt better. I was laughing and chatting with customers, keeping busy and before I knew it my hours were over! My sis came in to finish the day up and I just couldn't believe what a good day m [...]

My Problem, Please read...

kireena624@hotmail.com — Sat, 17 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

So I haven't gotten to writing this because I wrote it at the heat of the moment once at the end of December or maybe it was the first of January. Any who I was writing for a half hour and I hit some button (because I don't look at my keyboard when I type) and POOF it was GONE! And I was even MORE pissed off...So I was just so angry and I haven't gotten to writing it all out again. But most of you will be happy because now I'm going to make it brief since I'm not in the heat [...]

Gratitude Stone

kireena624@hotmail.com — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

So as you that have read my blog know I am reading the secret. There is a whole party on being grateful for everything. The more you are grateful and go over things that you are grateful for, by the "law of attracting" you will attract more things into your life to be grateful for. It is so hard to explain how this book reads but I think it is beautifully written and it really gives me hope. One of the exercises on this gratitude part was to put something in your pocket that is small t [...]

Hate Driving when I don't know where it is

kireena624@hotmail.com — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

I haven't seen my psychiatrist in a little over a month and I'm totally psyched to see her! I LOVE her and completely adore her. I swear, I would totally get lunch with her and just be her friend haha. Unfortunately she has moved to a different location then she has been at for 2 years of me going to her and now I have no idea where she is located. Well, I do, I have the address and all but I hate driving by myself when I don't know where I am going. I have never used a gps before [...]

The Secret

kireena624@hotmail.com — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

So I want to start this off with saying that I was a serious sceptic when my sister and my best friend were telling me about this book and how much they loved it and believed in it.

I am reading "The Secret" By: Rhonda Byrne, it is an amazing book and a very fast read because it is super interesting! Now before I tell you anything about it and why I think you all should read it and why I think it will help all of our anxiety is the same thing my sister wrote to me in the book [...]

GOT MY 4.0!!! :D

kireena624@hotmail.com — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

SO only because I stressed and stressed and talked and talked about and complained about how much I wanted a 4.0 and how hard I was working on it etc etc. I want to let all of you know that

I DID IT!!!

Yep :) I just got my grades yesterday. Out of 6 classes I got 4 A's and 2 A+'s YAY! I was so psyched that I screamed when I found out! All the stress I put myself was totally worth it and I went out of school and graduated with a BANG! I am so proud of myself and I just wanted to [...]

I'm back! and In ACTION!

kireena624@hotmail.com — Wed, 07 Jan 2009 22:00:00 +0100

Hi guys!,

Well, I am back and I am back in action! When I graduated from college, I didn't have a computer in my room constantly like when I was at my dorm and my parents keep their computer in the freezing cold basement and I am sensitive to the cold so I could only get down there here and there for a 1/2 hour at most.

Anywho! I am BACK!

I bought a router and a wireless adapter and my Dad hooked me all up! So I am in my nice cozy room and can get on much more now. I am so gla [...]

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It has been awhile...anxiety rearing it's head again

Rocked the Interview

JOB INTERVIEW!

Forgotten Anniversary

PISSED! >:-0

More Hebrew.HELP!

Heart Ache...

Anxious...

Hebrew

Sounds of the Beach

Thank you

Officially Single

Having a Hard time...

Day Turned Around

My Problem, Please read...

Gratitude Stone

Hate Driving when I don't know where it is

The Secret

GOT MY 4.0!!! :D

I'm back! and In ACTION!