My very first panic attack, that I "thought" required medical attention, happened several years ago. I was sick with a sinus infection and was given something for the pain. I remember being afraid to take it because, first of all, I don't like taking medication, and secondly, my mom is deathly allergic to codeine and I was horrified that I would be too.

After several minutes of trying to convince myself that it was okay to take it, I finally did. Not a minute after swallowing it, my heart started to explode out of my chest, I was dizzy, shakey, and feared for my life. I called my cousin to come and take me to the hospital where I was hooked up to the heart monitor, vitals were taken, blah blah blah, only to find out (thankfully though), that I was fine and was probably just suffering from an anxiety attack. JOY! The first of MANY.

My symptoms varied throughout the years. Sometimes I couldn't breathe, my vision would blur, I couldn't feel my arms, my speech would slur, or I'd feel spaced out. The list is never ending. I'd even have a panic attack in my SLEEP. The only time, so I thought, that I was "free" of feeling so terrible.

My anxiety has turned into agoraphobia on occassion. Im currently going through a spell right now. I haven't left the house in nearly 2 months, but I find that it is quite common for me, in the winter months, to feel more depressed and suffer more anxiety. Just add S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder) to my list of issues. I know things will look up the closer it gets to spring, but I don't want to wait that long, so here I am!  Ready to move on and start living again.

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maddie said:

	... I made it out of the house after more than 4 years. You can do it! Keep strong! :)
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February 01, 2008
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chilli said:

	... know what you mean about SAD,and you seem ready to take the next step.....go for it :) good luck ;)
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bunkin said:

	... damn homie i feel you
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