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The joys of bath time

(Wednesday, 07 May 2008) Written by Kellybeth

She sits, legs crossed. Not knowing where her sweat stops and the water starts. Shivering, but not cold. The house is still. She watches the ripples in the water with every heart beat. She can’t move, can’t breath. Repeating over and over “It’s o.k. your o.k.” She is not o.k. The walls are closing in. She feels claustrophobic. How much time has passed? 10 minutes? 30 minutes? 1 hour? Time has stopped yet is flying by. She is paralyzed, terrified. The water is getting cold. It is getting late. “Get up!!! Get out!!!” Why is this happening? What did she do wrong? Why is she being punished? Exhausted she raises to her feet, dripping sweat and water. Shivering as the air hits her body. There is no escaping this, no escaping herself. Defeated again, she leaves the bathroom.

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1. 07-05-2008 18:28

Your description had me shivering with you. That's one of the most moving pieces of writing I have ever read. I am sorry you had to suffer to write it.

Kellybeth you haven't done anything wrong. You are a caring, warm hearted, lovely person. If you are anything like me, you give too much then hurt like hell when the world and its wife kick you in the teeth!

Giving is good, but you have to have something to give. As you say, there is no escaping yourself. You cannot have the resources to give to others unless you are strong and content with yourself. Please be as kind to yourself as you try to be to others. Admit you cannot do it all and decide what you want and need for you.

No-one who can write like this blog is defeated - a bit battle worn maybe, but not down and out. You'll make it. Hang on in there!

PM anytime

Huge hugs xxx

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2. 07-05-2008 22:13

Kellybeth -

Do me a favor - google Elizabeth Ayers (she wrote a book called "Writing the Wave") and check out her online writing classes.

Get the book (paperback) from Amazon.com.

Take the six week course - I know it costs money but that will be incentive for you to participate. Later you can just follow the book.

But get yourself writing, and get the feedback and support --and you will FIND that voice!!

You are awesome and the world is yours!

Hugs,

Cindy

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ceejay

3. 08-05-2008 10:21

Thank you Ceejay and Maddie!Thank you for everything

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