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checking in
(Sunday, 09 November 2008) Written by earthmama
Well my friends, things must be going well.  I am not checking on PS 20 times a day.  Not taking deep breathes before I get in the car.  Not freaking out if I don't have water or my sunglasses in the car.  I still feel anxiety.  I guess I ... (40 more chars)
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One...year...DOWN!!!!!
(Wednesday, 24 September 2008) Written by earthmama
Can you believe it???  One year ago my hubby left for Iraq.  My heart was broken.  I was a mess.  I started taking zoloft, continued therapy, took care of myself.  Made new friends, continued with old friends.  Single parenting 2 boys who a... (1267 more chars)
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It been a while...
(Monday, 01 September 2008) Written by earthmama
Labor Day weekend is over... August flew by in the blink of an eye.  Kids are back at school - how can I have a 7th grader???  And how can my baby be a 3rd grader??? My sister and her two boys and two cats were here for three weeks. ... (936 more chars)
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David Fisher vs Dexter Morgan
(Monday, 28 July 2008) Written by earthmama
My husband and I are huge "Dexter" fans.  I even sent the books the TV show is based on to him in Iraq.  I love all of the characters, especially Dexter.  For those of you who haven't watched it - he is a serial killer who kills serial killers.  H... (2378 more chars)
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Angel and Devil on my shoulders
(Saturday, 19 July 2008) Written by earthmama
Things have been going very well.  I have been challenging myself everyday, and succeeding.  But I have that nagging voice telling me that things have been going so well, they are bound to get bad again. The devil on my shoulder is s... (1892 more chars)
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Move next summer
(Saturday, 28 June 2008) Written by earthmama
So when we entered the Army (yes, I said we) 14 years ago, the game was played a certain way.  You would move every 2-3 years.  Every other move would be overseas to Germany or Panama or Korea.  For an officer, this was your time line - officer ba... (2088 more chars)
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A year ago...
(Thursday, 19 June 2008) Written by earthmama
A year ago we had found a house, said goodbye to our friends in Kansas, and started on our big cross country adventure.  While I have wonderful memories, it was a time filled with so much anxiety - I couldn't let my husband out of my sight.  And y... (1454 more chars)
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8 months down....
(Tuesday, 27 May 2008) Written by earthmama
So, 8 months down.   I have to say it has been much different than I thought it would be.  I miss my best friend everyday.  I have it better than most..he is in a relatively safe area and maybe travels once a month.  We have pretty r... (510 more chars)
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Supermom!
(Wednesday, 21 May 2008) Written by earthmama
I put up a 48in by 16 foot swimming pool last night - having to take breaks for the massive THUNDER storm!  I had images of me getting struck by lightening while I was stretching out the bottom!   The boys and I started way too late ... (33 more chars)
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I need some R&R from R&R!
(Wednesday, 07 May 2008) Written by earthmama
My hubby left on Monday and is back "home" in Iraq.  We had a great visit.  Did a little bit of everything, yard work, traveling, watching TV, snuggling, time with the kiddos, time alone, talking listening, and lots of eating!  Reconnecting with m... (1430 more chars)
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Home from the funeral
(Sunday, 06 April 2008) Written by earthmama
What a week.... When we last saw our heroine, she was just returning from a weekend in Myrtle Beach.... The boys went to school on Monday while I ran around, getting packed, tying up loose ends.  We flew out on Tuesday morning - 3 fl... (1945 more chars)
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My head is spinning
(Sunday, 30 March 2008) Written by earthmama
Things have been super crazy. The beginning of the month my dad had surgery to remove a tumor in his prostate - they live in CA and I am in NC, so I wasn't able to help.  The same day, my grandpa was admitted to the hospital.   ... (426 more chars)
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One year since things got BAD
(Wednesday, 19 March 2008) Written by earthmama
A year ago this week is when things got really bad for me. Things had been building for a while, but that week, it was like a switch was flipped and the  anxiety and depression oozed over me, tainting everything I did. A year later, ... (694 more chars)
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Trying to take it all in...
(Monday, 10 March 2008) Written by earthmama
Personally, things are going well for myself.    I am volunteering, and deriving a tremendous amount of joy from time spent with kids.  My boys are doing quite well.  I couldn't be more proud of them.  Here are t he things that are ... (2067 more chars)
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expanding my bubble of safety
(Thursday, 28 February 2008) Written by earthmama
My therapist and I joke about my bubble of safety - where I feel I can go safely by myself.  Target and Kohls, my 2 favorite stores are just beyond my bubble.  I have gone with friends (them driving and me driving), but not by myself.   ... (602 more chars)
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fighting old patterns
(Wednesday, 20 February 2008) Written by earthmama
I had pretty much shut myself off from my old life- certain people, volunteering at school, etc. I am slowly getting back into it, because I was unhappy with out it in my life.  I told a friend today, after she has commented that I was slip... (1071 more chars)
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19 weeks
(Monday, 04 February 2008) Written by earthmama
19 weeks since my husband left for Iraq.   I miss my best friend.  I miss being able to look across the room when something is funny or frustrating and get that knowing look from him.  I miss the hugs and the kisses. BUT, thes... (1293 more chars)
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4 months down
(Thursday, 24 January 2008) Written by earthmama
Yep, it has been four months since my husband left for Iraq.  I haven't gone crazy (yet).  I have made huge strides (with the help of meds and sheer necessity), been shopping,  flew  across the country, asked for help. I am still not 100%, ... (919 more chars)
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GRRRR
(Tuesday, 22 January 2008) Written by earthmama
I have found myself quite snappy lately.  I am unhappy with myself.  Through all of 2007 I was working hard to lose weight, really watching what I ate and exercising.  By summer, I had gone from 172 to 145, and was feeling pretty good about myself... (1060 more chars)
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Joy of completion (with a little procrastination)
(Saturday, 12 January 2008) Written by earthmama
I have been frustrated lately, starting so many projects and never finishing them.  Today I finished three that had been hanging over me... 1.  Cleaned off  spray snow from windows and put the screens back up. 2.  Put up basketball g... (1070 more chars)
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Friday night
(Saturday, 05 January 2008) Written by earthmama
Things are going really well.  I am still missing my hubby terribly, but we are living positively without him.  He is in a relatively safe place (as safe as you can be in a war zone), and we IM almost daily.  But I find myself leaving things out o... (1454 more chars)
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New Year's Eve
(Tuesday, 01 January 2008) Written by earthmama
This is the 1st New year's eve since 1989 that I haven't been with my husband.  He called today - no big plans in Iraq for this evening.  I'm sure that a quiet night is much more desired (and definately no fireworks! ) My boys wanted to hav... (1252 more chars)
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Success on a plane
(Friday, 28 December 2007) Written by earthmama
I am celebrating.  I did something that I have done before, but thought I would never do again. I flew from NC to CA with my two boys for Christmas.  All the flights were fine - no xanax!  I had a few moments here and there, but overall -am... (531 more chars)
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Homework Hell
(Wednesday, 12 December 2007) Written by earthmama
Tonight has been a trying night.  2nd grader had to write a story.  6th grader was doing algebra with fractions .  I had to figure out what I was doing with the fractions - which I think confused him even more.  But, after a while we figured it ou... (1098 more chars)
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December 1st
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