Your description had me shivering with you. That's one of the most moving pieces of writing I have ever read. I am sorry you had to suffer to write it. 
 
Kellybeth you haven't done anything wrong. You are a caring, warm hearted, lovely person. If you are anything like me, you give too much then hurt like hell when the world and its wife kick you in the teeth! 
 
Giving is good, but you have to have something to give. As you say, there is no escaping yourself. You cannot have the resources to give to others unless you are strong and content with yourself. Please be as kind to yourself as you try to be to others. Admit you cannot do it all and decide what you want and need for you. 
 
No-one who can write like this blog is defeated - a bit battle worn maybe, but not down and out. You'll make it. Hang on in there! 
 
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Huge hugs xxx

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