I have been suffering lately from rapid thinking. It seems like my mind is going a hundred million miles a minute with thoughts of dread, worry, and anger. I the midst of the rapid thinking I often have very deep thoughts about the meaning of life and being very aware of my existence. It is hard to explain but at times I will startle myself when I speak because I wonder why I speak or what the point it is. I will be in the middle of a conversation with my friends and I become so aware of my existence that I wonder if my friends are really real or if I am really there. What is I? What is me? These thoughts scare me. I have tried to go through the day thinking stupid things or going through stupid trivia in my head to slow myself down but this rapid thinking always creeps up. At times this thinking becomes very overwhelming and I start to panic. I don't know why I panic. I think it is because the world and myself seems so uncertain and I have a huge fear of the unknown. Can anyone help me? What is wrong with me? Is this a disease?

Thank you and God bless

Hi Jenny~I started to feel exactly as you described after I had my daughter. I just felt scared alot and everythime I heard about a death or someting bad happening I would think why even go through life if these terrible things happen. I know that mine was triggered by having my daugher and the fear of something happening to her or me-therefore leavingher without a mother. For me the thing that helpd was getting enough sleep and exercising.....kept me more balanced and less "in my head" lamy

Theres nothing wrong with you and no this isn't a disease, its a anxiety disease. I have felt just like you and actually for a couple days I have been feeling quite dreamy. My mind has done that so many times, where it would not SHUT UP, I was like please just stop. I'm sure we all have questions like this, even those who don't have bad anxiety. So don't think your crazy or something is wrong with you, a lot of people experience this!

Hey Jenny

This used to happen to me all of the time when I was little,and even now and again it still happens. It's called derealization. I know how wierd and sorta scary that is. It's almost as if you're talking but your voice sounds really muffled and 1,000,000 miles away. I used to be terrified that no one could see me and that I didn't exsist or that I was dead.At that time I was really scared of the thought of death and like you said, I would have an ephiphany that one day I was going to die, and that's when those feelings would start.I don't know if maybe that's similar to your situation or not? But don't worry even though it's creepy,it's a very common problem. I hope it gets better!